坚持

曾经。。。

三年前。。。

对某些事。。。

还很耿耿于怀。。。

固执。。。

三年后的现在。。。

开始。。。

放下了。。。

当面对不如意的事时。。。

只有心中默念。。。

要坚强。。。

当付出但得不到所要的。。。

对自己说。。。

我尝试过了。。。

我对得起自己。。。

当得不到别人的认同。。。

或别人不珍惜你的付出。。。

或认定你做错了。。。

对自己说。。。

只要自己觉得对的。。。

就可以了。。。

发觉自己变了许多。。。

也开始怀念以前的我。。。

那个无所畏惧的我。。。

那个开朗的我。。。

我不能倒下。。。

迷失

第一次用华语写部落格。。。

我迷失了。。。

几个月里。。。

一直问自己。。。

发生什么事？？？

对自己。。。

除了失望。。。

还是失望。。。

面对一切不如意的事。。。

我。。。

无法改变。。。

只能接受。。。

唯一对自己自豪的。。。

就是。。。

我。。。

还没倒下。。。

必须告诉自己。。。

一定要坚强。。。

我发誓。。。

崩溃过。。。

也哭过。。。

也醒了。。。

问自己。。。

奇迹。。。

还会发生吗？？？

告诉自己。。。

命运是掌握在自己手上。。。

烦恼中。。。

问自己。。。

我

还

有

多

少

能

耐

？

我没哭。。。

因为眼泪已干了。。。

坚强的面对。。。

Y3S3

What have I learnt throughout this semester?

Many...

And no doubt...

I lose my way...

I am wondering...

Where is the brave and fearless kailiang?

Where is the accurate me?

I need to find back...

Not happy recently...

Feel like being...

I miss the kailiang 3 years ago...

Random update.

After midterms...

Here come the assignments...

Need to work hard for that...

Praying hard for my results and cgpa...

Try my best on it...

Never regret...

Who will I be after the submission of assignments?

Maybe...

Half dead...

Zombie look...

Panda...

Hmm...

Just draw my sword and fight...

Fearless...

That's what I can say now...

Pictures

Just some pictures of mine recently...

Gatherings are always the best for me...

Update, friendship, tired, nothing

Just have a random post to update to all of you that...

I am not fine at all now...

Not having good sleep for few days and quite tired now...

With reasons...

Seriously...

I am emotional now...

I am just always asking myself the same question...

Where is my courage?

Where is my motivation?

I cant believe myself that my tears dropped down...

I am way too tired of pretending?

Recently, I really understand and believe the power of STRESS...

It is killing...

Can you imagine stress coming from every direction and attacking you?

Studies, Assignments, Friendship, and Trust...

Again...

I would like to say and announce that...

As usual...

Scourge is winning...

I always tell myself that...

Just face the reality...

This world is realistic...

JUST

FACE

THE

TRUTH

What to cheer my now?

Who can cheer me now?

Random

Another random post...

At 430am...

What?

Yea...

I can't sleep...@@

I lose my courage...

Where is the kailiang 2 years ago...

Who is fearless and never give up easily...

I am serious this time...

No doubt...

However...

Playing in my mind

A song is keep on playing in my mind...

Wouldn't change a thing by Joe Jonas and Demi Lovato...

What a nice song...

Addicted...

What happened to me?

Throughout this 2 months?

Feeling myself is just so busy...

I know...

I need to stay strong...

Stay tough...

The war begins again...

What are my motivations now?

Family...

Friends...

True friends...

Starwalk...

Primary school gathering...

Yumcha with secondary schoolmates...

Tell myself...

I can go through that...

And someone...

God...

Please help me...

Please bless me...

Please lead me...

Addicted to this picture too...

Promise me...

You all are my motivations to continue the war...

Random

God...

I am scare now...

I am in fear now...

What can I do?

I am trying my best all the time...

But...

But...

Please save me...

I need some words from you...

Everything goes wrong...

I am scare and worry...

Scare and fear that I cant handle the problems...

I know...

I am staying strong all the time...

And I promise...

Blessing...

Random

I shouldn't be like this anymore...

What am I now?

Who am I now?

I have no idea...

Again...

Feel that the world is unfair...

Unfair enough...

Enough!!!

I need to change...

Someone...

Sometimes...

In my mind...

I cant forget what had she done...

I never forgive you???

Maybe...

You are such a disappointment...

What can I say now is...

Please...

Don't ever think that you are great and you can do everything since you are beautiful...

You are such a bitch!!!

Daughter of bitch!!!

Sorry for saying such rude words...

For a long time

For a long time...

I am just speechless...

I am tired of saying everything out...

Mentally and physically tired and sick...

I just cannot control myself...

What am I thinking now?

Wouldn't change a thing...

I'm with you...

Sorry...

Someone is just my motivation now...

Nothing to say but...

Thank a lot to her...

Maybe...

She gets into my life in the suitable time...

The time where I experienced the downturn...

Blessing...

Something

Heading for another assignment later...

And seriously...

I am tired...

Can you expect to drive a car but in fact the car has no fuel at all?

That's my condition now...

Tired of assignments and tests...

Tired of someone...

Hiko is right enough to point it out...

Never sad...

Never cry...

And never disappointed when these things happened...

But in fact...

You shall smile...

And I promise...

I will smile...

After I am done with my assignments...

Will tell in details...

Soon...

Now I only realised

Since these few days...

Recently...

I learned something...

Something that is valuable...

I know that I need to go through that...

No matter how tough it is...

Although others are ignoring you...

I am just myself...

For a long time... friendship forever...

I have not post something happy here...

For a long time...

Camenn gives me the power to do that...

Gonna thank her a lot...

Seriously...

You are not my friend...

You are not my primary classmates...

Because...

You are my good and best friend...

Until yesterday...

I am still emotional on something...

Something that seemed hard to be solved...

What happened now?

Nothing much in fact...

Just that...

I changed...

After your words...

Just cannot imagine...

You words are sharp enough to wake me up...

Someone just online...

Probably?

No way...

Is must...

Maybe you won't understand what am I talking...

Before ending my post...

Thanks again my friend...

At least...

I am more comfortable and happier now...

And your novels...

HIGH 5!!!

FRIENDSHIP FOREVER...

p.s I know I am long gas... gratz again for passing all your paper... hehe...

A story... the story between us

I am sick...

Sick terribly...

Tired...

I just cannot concentrate...

Probably...

The hot weather...

I read a love story forwarded by my friends...

And unbelievable...

I was touched by the storyline...

And it makes me to...

For a long time...

Long time ago...

I was just...

What am I writing...

I am just a lousy one...

Who not dare to face the truth...

Professional in pretending?

Probably...

Time for it...

There is only one way...

At least the best way for me to solve the problem...

I think I get it...

Moody, fearless, sad, cry, when you are gone.. what happened...

Hello again my blog...

Again...

I am sad...

Seriously...

Yesterday...

Or maybe...

Since the whole week...

I learnt many things...

Still cannot accept the truth...

I am just so sad...

And moody...

Since Monday...

I set my family and relatives picture as my desktop background...

And I told myself...

In this world...

No matter what happened...

If you lose your love one...

If you lose your friendship...

You still have your family...

Your dad...

Your mom...

Your brother...

Your grandpa...

Your lovely and caring cousins...

And you will never walk alone...

With reason...

I am emo recently...

Just admit that...

I am mature...

But I am emotional...

Especially this week...

Cried for times...

Tired of my life...

Oh great...

I am crying now...

Addicted to When You Are Gone by Avril Lavigne...

With reasons...

Admit that...

Previously...

Under certain situations...

(Coughing badly)

I was not thinking rationally...

Promise myself...

I will stay strong and change...

Seriously...

Appreciate Teck Hoe for accompanying me the whole night...

Alex for your advise...

I am really feeling better now...

Cheers...

Time for some happy songs?

This is our song...

Live to party...

Fearless...

Lets do it...

Stay strong...

Wouldn't change a thing

Seriously...

These few days...

Thanks a lot to Dan tart and my songs...

At least...

They healed my heart and soul...

Pain-ing...

Thanks Dan tart...

Thanks my songs...

And lastly...

Wouldn't change a thing...

By Demi and Joe...

It's like he doesn't hear a word I say

His mind is somewhere far away

And I don't know how to get there

It's like (She's way too serious)

All he wants is to chill out (She's always in a rush)

He makes me wanna pull all my hair out (And interrupting)

Like he doesn't even care (Like she doesn't even care)

You, (me)

We're face to face but we don't see eye to eye

Like fire and rain (Like fire and rain)

You can drive me insane (You can drive me insane)

But I can't stay mad at you for anything

We're Venus and Mars (We're Venus and Mars)

We're like different stars (Like different stars)

But you're the harmony to every song I sing

And I wouldn't change a thing

Admit that...

I am just so scare in facing the truth...

Although I know it...

I will just pretend that I do not know anything...

I am just so...

Admit that...

I seldom to have post when I am happy...

I am so often to post while I am down...

Yeah...

I am down again...

Admit that...

I am just so good...

In pretending...

When in front of all...

I am just like to joke...

When I am alone...

I am really alone...

Admit that...

We cant go back to the initial point...

And start it all over again...

It's too late...

Cry

I never cry...

For a long time...

Thinking of want to cry just now...

But at last...

No tears...

I admit that...

I made a silly and big mistake N years ago...

I am just so shock of the previous me...

Cant even imagine why I can make such mistake during that time...

Admit that...

Appreciate some friends...

Still care on me when I was making the mistake...

But...

But...

I am speechless...

I am just pretending all the way...

Pretend to be happy during the journey back...

In fact...

When I know the truth...

My heart is bleeding...

Probably...

I am good in covering myself...

Appreciate those who care me...

I...

Random

I learnt something today...

And it's time to wake up...

It is a hard decision...

But...

What to do when you have no choice?

Just...