When you are gone

Aww...

Seriously...

I hate to have my post with such title...

But...

It suits me the best with my current situation...

Tired...

Complicated...

I am just so sick...

Feeling myself that not missing her anymore...

We are friends again...

Happy with current status...

Maybe?

Am I lying to myself?

At least we are friends...

Maybe...

Good friends...

And best friends...

In fact...

The moment you forgive me for my dumbness...

I was already happy and appreciate for your kindness...

Maybe...

Time will prove everything...

A friend or probably... RANDOM

(Wouldn't change a thing)

I thought I have lost the friendship between you and me...

Until that day we met in the library...

I lost my trust towards you...

I miss the friendship between us...

(Mine)

I am forcing myself to forget that...

The incident that was hurting and haunting me for such as long time...

I am trying to forget you...

*Stunned*

Friends are always important to me after my family...

Without them...

I cant even go through this semester...

Seriously...

If I am Batman, then all of you would be Robin...

LOL

(Fearless)

I know that I need to stop that...

Random

Feel like wanna make some update here...

As usual...

Many things happened...

And again...

I told myself...

I need to be tough...

Someone let me see her truth face...

So ugly...

She is so cruel and cold blooded enough to treat her friends on that way...

How realistic you are...

I promise you...

You are just daughter of b****...

Seriously...

Many friends and even myself said that you are good looking...

But in fact...

You are just an ugly witch!!!

Random...

KL KL KL KL KL...

KL is not kailiang...

But...

Kuala Lumpur...

At last...

I had a trip...

With my cousins...

And met some friends...

Ahahahahahaha...

I am happy...

Whee.......

High 5...

I wanna sing Fearless!!!

San Francisco!!!

Suria KLCC!!!

Yum cha-ing!!!

Jett+ kailiang+ gaga+ sobi!!!

Monkey!!!???

Fun-ing!!!

Fun-ing... again!!!

Nasi Lemak!!! I'm lovin it!!!

Madam Kwan!!! Tada...

WOW!!!

Nice view!!! I like it!!!

Sorry

Addicted to Jonas Brothers recently...

Addicted to one of their songs...

Addicted to SORRY...

It was under expectation...

I'm sorry

For breaking all the promises

That I wasn't around to keep

You told me that this time

Iis the last time

That I will ever beg you to stay

But you're already on your way

Forcing myself...

(5 minutes gone)

I am forcing myself...

Really forcing myself...

Forcing myself to show my cold blood face when I meet her...

I saw her picture in Facebook randomly...

Without seconds, I closed the tab...

I know that...

I need to do that...

I need to...

I need to forget her...

She is just a common friend...

A friend...

A usual friend...

For many times and many months...

Feeling myself is just like a stupid...

Yeah...

Months before...

She just treated me as a tool...

A tool...

I shall know the truth since months before...

Just cant imagine why I cant back to reality during that time...

Addicted to SORRY by Jonas Brothers...

(see her online status)

I just cant forgive her...

And myself too...

Hurted?

Maybe...

We are not as close as before...

Thats what I can tell you and myself...

Just a small action and it tells everything...

I think...

I am still finding the meaning of friend...

And seriously...

I cant find the meaning from you anymore...

Since I saw your truth face...

Can I just ignore your sms about the mooncake festival?

I am forcing myself...

Forcing myself...

(You make me crazier, crazier, crazier...)

I need to find something to do...

Everything... Many thing...

I learnt many things throughout this few months...

As usual...

Things related to friendship, love, relationship, and studies...

My lecturer asked me a good question before...

Have you ever change since you started your university life?

And my answer is YES...

Compared to before...

I am becoming more mature in handling some problems...

Problems that make me feel sick...

Many friends are around me throughout my hard time...

And I am so happy...

And proud...

For having such a gang of friends...

Not going to mention all of them but be more specific...

Hor Lap tells me that he is reliable...

Without you, I think I cant go through the tough time...

Dan Tart (and the gang) tells me that he is simple and reliable...

No matter what happened...

He is going to lend me his ear...

Ling Siaw also tells me that he is independent and reliable...

Accompanying me when I was happy and down...

Proud to have such friend...

Wei Chuan tells me the meaning of happiness...

Just a simple girl...

And others...

Some friends...

You cant ignore that...

Some is selfish...

Some is in fact just a noob but pretend to be a pro...

Since she is getting out of my life...

Another friend is almost getting out of my life too...

She taught me a good lesson...

A good lesson on how reality is such the world...

Some friends told me that you are great...

And you give me a good impression on my mind...

Since that incident...

I have a new and better understanding on you...

LIAR!!!

Parents told me that it was not all her fault...

You need to be responsible for that too...

But I think...

I think...

I cant accept that...

Studies...

Exam just over and nothing to say...

No matter whats the result...

I can accept that...

Because...

At least I tried my best...

Not going to say tired anymore...

Because I know that...

When I was down...

I still have them...

FRIENDS...

and lets scream FEARLESS!!!