Solo...

Since sem 2...
I had seen a meaningful sentence...
From Hiang blog...
And Amanda email...

And...
This sentence had helped me a lot...
It helped me to pass through a torturing sem 2...

But now...
sem 3 is coming...
And...
I need this sentence again...
But not because of her...
But because of certain things...

Fighting for 2 sem...
Finally...
I beat the asshole...
Although is little...
I am satisfied...

Back to my main topic...
Sem 3 is a new challenge...
And...
I am giving myself one more chance...
Putting friendship on the top of my list...

Sincerely....
Hope that...
My decision does not wrong...

Stick together or solo...
Depends...

Loser

Recently...
Again...
I am blurred now...
With reason???
Or without reason???
I am blurred...

I am having a bad thinking now...
Since my parents are extremely satisfied with my result...
But...
Why are you still unhappy???
Ok...
I shall change my mind...

After thinking for a few days...
I am ok...
I need to accept the fact...
That...
I am having problems in anything...
Studies...
Relationship...
Friendship...

I lose to you...

Thinking...
I sincerely hope...
I can back to secondary school life...
Happy with friends...
Missing you...
2006-07 Kailiang...

Exam result and feeling

Recently...
Final result was released...
My feeling...
Is complicated...
But mostly...
I am happy...
Cos...
Hehe...

Accidently asked some of my friends' cgpa...
They did a nice job...
They are higher than me...
Most probably...
I am studying hard but not quite studying smart...
T.T...

Anyway...
What I want to say to them is...
Gratz...
Cos...
When they are having higher cgpa in exam result...
They are still very humble...
I love these friends...
These are true friends...

Happy...
Why???
Cos...
Las sem...
A sucker look down on me with cgpa...
During that time...
I was really angry...
Looking down on those who are having lower cgpa than u...
I hate it...

But now...
Who is the boss???
This time...
I beat u...
It is really a nice war...
I did it...
Thanks God...
Deep in my mind...
I think...
U are suffering...

Now...
My feeling...
Is quite ok...
Although I had a bit feeling of sadness...
But still ok...
Cos...
The one who beat me is more hardworking...
He is worth for it...
Gratz...

So...
Lastly...
Wanna noe my cgpa???
What I can say is...
Consistent...
^^

No titile

No title...
Actually...
It means...
Ntg...
T.T...
Although my feeling is complicated...
And...
I have many things to say and talk...

How complicated is my feeling???
Hmm...
Maybe...
It started since today morning...
Having a lousy breakfast...
Since I had my sleep late during last nite...
I slept back after breakfast...

What happened next???
Ntg to me...
But a ppl who are close to me...
Lets call the ppl EFG...[=.=]
After back from breakfast...
Pro...
Without wasting time...
Having his online game...
Although being scolded for many times...

Deep in my mind...
I cant bear it anymore...
Maybe...
I think...
I am suitable to stay in my uni hostel...
Alone...
Free...
Without quarrel...
Peace...


Emo-ing...
[To be continued]

Suddenly

Suddenly...
I feel sad...
Without reason...
Because of her???
I think no...
Is one of my friends...
What happened between us...
I am very blur in my mind...
Before that...
Your attitude...
Give me a feeling that...
You are a good girl, good student, and also a good friend...
But...
Sometimes...
Thinking of you...
Aren't you a bit too kind and stupid in making friend???
Having a look in her MSN pm...
Totally speechless...
How can you trust a people who ara SUCKS!!!

Since we chat happily in MSN for a long time...
Sometimes...
Deep in my mind...
I sincerely hope that...
We can be good friend...
Not quite many girls treat me such good...
Concern...
Kind...

Ok...
Kailiang...
Do not think too much...
She is 18...
Are mature enough to think...
What is correct...
And what is wrong...

Take care...

My feeling

I like to blog...
Why???
It is because...
There are many secrets that...
I can write in my lovely blog...
Sumtimes...
Having problems...
Secrets...
Secrets of others...
Deep in ur heart...
Without telling...
Is torturing...

My feeling now is nice...
Listening to SAY GOODBYE by S CLUB 7...
Suddenly...
I feel that...
I am more mature...
Compare to Sem 1 Kailiang...

Problems???
Hmm...
I have many problems now...
Friendship, Family, ETC...
However...
Compared to sem 1 Kailiang...
I can handle it myself...

Another 1...
If I am asked the favourite english words...
SNIPER is my choice...
As I said...
Sniper in games, Sniper in real life...
It does not mean my job is sniper...
but professional in observing people...
That my way to survive in my uni life...
So...
I need to improve my skills...

Secret???
Well...
Since Sem 2...
I had a feeling on a gal...

However...
Until almost the end of sem 2...
Finally...
I realised that...
Isn't it is good for having a single life???
Although...
Sumtimes...
I shall think of her...
But...
Currently...
I like single...
[Smiling and calm]

Secrets of others???
Well...
I think...
I think...

FAKE

Since the 1st sem...
FAKE has disturbed my mind all the time...
I cant understand why...
Many of my friends hated me very much...
Due to this word...
FAKE...
Even some of my friends quarrelled with me...
I cant bear it anymore...
How FAKE am I???

It is a truth...
Compared to secondary school...
Maybe...
I am more hardworking...
Cos I am scholarship holder...
I dun wan to disappointed my parents...
They worked hard for many years...

Sumtimes...
I cant deny it...
I juz study hard onli...
Nothing more...
I juz did my job onli...

But sumtimes...
Maybe I have no confident...
Tats y my fren said tat I am FAKE...

Hey...
If I am FAKE...
I shall not teach all of u since myself also haven finished studying...
What I had done???
Teach all of u in msn step by step...

FAKE...
=.=
T.T
=.=lll

My friends

Until now...
It is a truth that...
Secondary school friends played an important role in my life...
Although we are not always together...
I shall miss every moment...
When we are together...

Truth and Fake

Well...
Since I started my uni life...
Everything changed...
Even myself...
No matter physically or mentally...

Compared to before...
17/2 kailiang is totally different...

Well...
Since friendship is important for me...
U cant ignore it...
When something happened to my friends...
I shall by their side...
Without wasting time...
I shall persuade them...
Make them happy...
Give them reinforcement...
Cheer them up....

What for I do all these things???
It is because...
All of u are my fren...

I treat all of my frens based on my true heart....
And...
Please...
Dun say that I am fake aka jia qing jia yi [in chinese]

Complicated

Hi blog...
Well...
Recently...
Many things happened around me...
Since sem break...
There are only few moments that I can consider as happy...
Wat happened???

Tired of everything...
Many things happened...
Family...
Friends...
Although I sleep for 9 hours everyday...
I am still not energetic...

Where is the previous kailiang???
Can do assignment lonely without sleeping for 2 days...
=.=lll

Family...
Recently...
My brother sicked...
Reason???
Stupid reason...
Play online game...
T.T
Made my dad angry and moody...
Of course...
Me too...

Friends...
Recently...
Many of my friends are moody...
Hiang...
JJ...
Alexis...
Liwen...
Hey...............
My dear friends...
No matter what happened...
I will still by your side...
Ok???

Valentine Day???

Today is sunday...
and really boring...
Sleeping at 2 am las nite...
I am having a blur mind now...
Seems all things are complicated...
I cant bear it anymore...



Recently...
I was totally speechless with one of my "old" friend...
Complicated in his love....
Totally no idea....



Having a look on the incident...
Suddenly....
Thought of myself and her...
My mind is clear now...
Juz wanna be ur best fren...
But not ur bf...



Hehe...
I am still enjoying my single life...
As my friend said...
Single can still gap leng zai...
Lolz...



Listening to Say Goodbye by S Club 7...
My mind is calm now...
This year is my 19th single valentine day...
However...
I am still very happy...



Why???
It is because....
Now...
It is more important...
To pay attention...
On my studies...
On my friendship...(miss u, 5S2)
On my family...
On my scholarship...

Parents are working hard for my education and future...
So...
I cant disppointed them...

Lets do it...

Sem 3...
Lets do it...

Sniper and the incident (Part 2)

Hi blog...
Recently, I have no energy...
Maybe...
Tired of exams...
I cant breathe...
This day...
Is the last day of my exam...
As usual...
Went to school...
I juz sat down to chat with fren but not have the revision...
=.=...T.T...=.=lll...
Suddenly...
ABC appeared and walked pass me...
I was shocked...
She...
How can???
She is cuter and more beautiful...
Compared to last time I saw her...
But...
Stop it Kailiang...
U cant think of it...
U must stop thinking of her...
Luckily...
Compared to las time...
My feeling was so calm...
Assuming that nothing happened...
Suddenly...
Deep in my mind...
I sincerely hope that u can have ur good life...
I do not dare to think to be ur bf...
But...
Juz wanna be ur best fren...
We still fren...
ABC...
rite???
Frenship forever...

Single life

Recently, many frens around me are in relationship...no matter secondary school frens...uni frens... in conclusion...T.T...I am still single...
If sumone asked me what the feeling of being single, i would answer them it was torturing.
However, if u ask me the same question now, it would be free. Hmm...well, maybe now, it is not suitable to have girlfriend now. Or you can say tat I am still not mature...hehe
Aniway, no matter wat happen in the future, I dunnoe, but until now, I ma still enjoying single life...
(To be continued)