Perfect Christmas

Christmas is coming soon.
Ladies and gentlemen, hope you all have a nice and PERFECT CHRISTMAS.
Perfect Christmas by S Club 7.


Doo doo doo
doo doo doo
ya ya
do do do
do do do
Hello friend,
it's me again
I just called to tell you
even though I miss you so
I've been thinking of you
all my dreams are coming true, at last...oooh
The perfect ending to a wonderful year (oooh)
will be to celebrate the good times with you here
cuz I know,
for sure,
I never wanted anything more
CHORUS:
The greatest gift that there could be
wrapped underneath my Christmas tree
would be the same my whole life through
I'd spend the perfect Christmas with you
though the winter seems so long
my faith in love has kept me strong
so if I had a wish come trueI'd spend the perfect Christmas with you
I can't wait
till the day
when I finally see you
so hold onI wont be long
got so much to show you
all our dreams are coming true at last...oooh
The perfect ending to a wonderful year
would be to celebrate the good times with you here
cuz I know,for sure,
i never wanted anything more

No title

Wat?
kai liang, no title again?
ish...

at last,
great, i finished all my midterms and presentations.
And now only i can have some blogging here.
as wat james said, "u reli have nothing to do ar?"
yup.
mayb but let bring the house down 1st.
XD

Sem 2 is gonna end soon.
7 weeks and just 7 weeks.
I leart many things.
I experienced many things.
I know many things.
I appreciate many thing.
I am totally different.
Compared to before.
The time when i was in the foundation.
now i onli know that how am i.
How am i.
Great.

Dis sem, i had learnt on what is discrimination.
i am not hating but dissapointed with those who discriminate me de to my result.
seriously i do not hate u pls.
although u gv me "suck" during our msn conversation.
I was discriminated.
Thx for those who lend me ur shoulder and ur hands when i was down.
sincerely i noe that i am not walking alone.
Thx for everything.

When i looked on that,
seriously i noe that i made a big mistake.
A bit disappointed.
But...
What to do...
Life still goes on and u cant stop there.
Sometimes, i am just thinking.
How is my life now?
I do not know.
I am veri blur.
I am tired.
And I am scare to face it.

Sometimes,
i just think that hu will by my side when i was down?
anyone?
someone?
I dont know.
and now...
i have ntg to write ady...
let this pass to the fate...

The 4

At last, I find myself sometime to have something here.
Recently, busy, busy, and busy.
Tired, tired and tired.
And in fact, I changed.
Totally changed.
Many things happened in this sem.
And I know some of my friends deeper.
And "thank you", all of you give me a good lesson.
Now I only know the truth.

Current life is on downturn and bottom.
Tired, bored, and disappointed to have such a life.
In fact, I learnt many things too in this sem.
I learnt the new way to have my life.
I had some new friends.
I become more mature. (am I?)

Ok, back to the 4.
Ryan Babel, Fernando Torres, David Villa, and lastly, Jesus Navas.
Maybe I am too serious but when I was down, they are all in my mind especially jesus navas.
It is a truth.
They are great player.
No matter on the field or in the game.
Babel and Villa tell me on what strength is.
Torres tells me the word GREAT.
And Navas tells me not to give and stand up.
They are my idols and also my motivation.
The 4, THANK YOU...

The stories... my stories...

Not much time for blogging recently... stories of mine will be published asap based on these 4 players.

No title

Everything was almost settled...
Things should be clear now...
Today...
I learnt many things...
I looked on things more clearer...
I know on how to differentiate...

A song that I am addicted recently...
再说 by 范逸臣

再说也没有用 再多也不会够 盼望只是一个梦 清醒只会更疼痛 再说你本来就 迟早会离开我 还有一点点时间可以看你的脸孔 趁现在我还来不及难过的时候 你离去的背影 看着花瓣慢慢的流走 请让我维持我仅存的温柔 目送你离开了我 收拾自己整理这一切的来龙去脉 答应我你离开以后 别记得曾经有过 一丝丝可能存在我们之间 放什么 那个结果 再说你本来就 迟早会离开我 还有一点点时间可以看你的脸孔 趁现在我还来不及难过的时候 你离去的背影 我歪着头 多美的镜头 请让我维持我仅存的温柔 目送你离开了我 收拾这个家曾经有的你存在过 答应我你离开以后 想起的那一个我 只是一开始 还嬉皮笑脸还很难说冷笑话 等那一个我 答应我你离开以后 别记得曾经有过 收拾自己整理这一切的来龙去脉 答应我你离开以后 别记得曾经有过 一丝丝可能存在我们之间 放什么 那个结果

Blessing

Again it is a silent and peace night...
And in coming 2 days...
I shall face the fear...
Results gonna release...
Sincerely...
I hope and promise myself...
I shall be better next time...
I promise...
Please...
I tried my best already...

Short term thinking...

What a weird title...
My house did not have electricity supplies just now...
My house was dark...
Nothing to do but lying on my bed...
And started to think on everything...
Yup...
Everything...
I thought of my game...
I thought of my studies...
I thought of friendship...
I thought of her...
The night was silent...
Silent enough to have a deep evaluation and thinking...
It took 20 minutes...
I think...
I know what I am going to do...

Bless me for everything...
Jesus Navas...

Deep evaluation

Sem break just started and at last, I found myself a reason to have a deep think and evaluation on myself. It is a truth. I lose. Totally lose. Everything seemed go in another direction with me. I just wonder and think. How can? How can it be? What happened? I lose. I lose. I lose totally. Looking around and I found nothing. Everything just fake and fake.
Many told me before that I am thinking in a negative way. In fact, half half. The current me is in bad situation physically and mentally. I am tired. Sometimes, I just wanna give up and get out from my current life. Come on. I am just a normal person with a normal life. But why the life is complicated, challenging, tiring?
What is the time where I can close the file? The file.....
My life and the file....
Secrets around my mind and cannot tell anyone except few. It is really tiring. In front of all of you, I am normal. I like to smile, cheer everyone around me, and make everyone happy. However, when I look on mirror, I seemed a bit... a bit...
I am old no matter physically and mentally. I tried to ask myself. What can i do now? Everything just... just...
The night is so silent. So peaceful. Listening to songs in laptop, chatting with friends, I am still thinking. I need to change. Need to change my personality. I need my prz and cssk bk. And to be tough, stronger.
Kailiang, u can do it. Can it? YA!!!!!!!! (as same as hojun comment)

P.S thx for everything, fatt chi, bruce and paul.
P.S 世人辱我，欺我，笑我，谤我，如何处置？
唯有忍他，由他，避他，不要理他。
A nice quote

Life because of you, FRIENDS

Life is short and I am totally agree with this.
No matter what happen, cheer up pls.
Emo and dull due to relationship and exam.
Stress, stress and stress.
I try myself not to give up but in fact, it is hard.
Facing with many problems, I cant bear it anymore.

Luckily, I have all of you.
Who are you?
Friends.
Thank you.
Because of you, I can "survive" until now.
Am i a bit serious?
Thanks for everything.
The big gathering and the small gathering.
I really appreciate.

Walking along the road of life.
I know that,
I shall never walk alone.
Thanks for the happiness, concerns, advises, and many more.

the road

Fighting for long time...
At last...
I know myself clearly that...
Since I chose the road...
I know the road is tough...
Go through it or not...

No title

Again, no title.
What again?
I had a bad day.
Maybe due to exam,
I am damn stress and think too much on everything.
All of the sudden,
I thought of sumthing.
Argh!!!
I hate it.
Suddenly, I hate myself.
I really hate myself on it.
I wanna release my stress.
But how?
How?
I am blur, blur and blur.
I need friends.
I need your shoulders.
Especially Jojo, Siva, Kiat Seng and Guan Hao.
Always remember the moment I went to your place and blow water.
And others.
Bruce, Paul, Weng Yew, Hojun, Jo Ee, Ostan.
(P/S There are many of you ... sry for not mentioning all)
Miss the moment and appreciate the true friendship between us.

From peak to downturn

Recently, it is a fact.
It is a fact that I am overloaded.
I cant bear with it.
Exam is coming but in fact, I am not well prepared.
Need to arrange my timetable until cant find any time to study.
"GREAT"

Had a comment from junhui aka hojun just now.
In fact, I was touched.
Thx for everything junhui.
I really appreciate it.
Deep in my heart, thx thx and thx.

Memories

A photo uploaded by Brian.
Say truely...
Thx for it...
In fact, I had kept this picture in my laptop after we were graduated and since I started my uni life...
No one can ignore the relationship between us...
I miss the moments...
Without stress...
Blew water everyday during that time...
Played truant for PJ and kena rotan...
Everything...
I miss you all...
Jojo...
Say Lin...
Cheng Hon...
Chun Ho...
Bruce...
Chih Yong...
Kiat Seng...
Hao Jie...
Guan Hao...
Weng Yew...
Jo Ee...
and others...
There are too many...
Trust me...
Friendship forever...

Faking

I am just a fake person.
No matter what problems happened,
I am still able to smile in front of all.
Problems cannot be solved and arise.
Facing with suck things and I am just hopeless and helpless.
Who can help me?
Family? Friends?
Even myself also cannot help myself.
In fact, I am very tired and tired.
Sleep cannot help much.
Cry?
Probably, I had cried too much before.
And now, I have no mood to cry.
No feel.
Cold.
Tear does not drop down anymore.
Tired, tired, and tired.
I am just...

Jesus Navas...

- No title-

What am I doing?
In fact, I do not know.
Just that, recently, I cant concentrate on everything.
Seemed "old", tired, exhausted, and just wanna have a deep evaluation on myself.
In fact, I can be considered as a professional.
Although problems are around, I am still able to close and keep it deep in my heart.
I am tired.
Just very tired.
Who can help me?
Anyone?
Always have promises to all for being fine.
But is that my problems easy to be solved.
Fear and scare are around my mind.
I need all of your shoulders.
I miss.
Be tough.

Jesus Navas.

Miracle

In fact, this is one of the words that I like since I started my uni life.

I had told the words and shared my own experiences of miracles to many of my friends who are in bad mood.
Deep in my mind, I believe that as long as you trust, miracle will appear. (My words a bit old fashioned huh?)
In fact, I trusted the appearance of miracle due to a football match.
Try to believe it.
I happened in May 2005.
A football match between Liverpool and AC Milan.
For Liverpool fans like me, I am sure that all of you will know it.
Match started just 1 minutes plus and AC Milan 1-0.
Half time, Liverpool down by 0-3.
A bit theory and I skipped it.
And at last, believe it.

Ok, back to my topic.
Yesterday, maybe I am a bit serious but in fact, miracles happened. Having 2 midterms yesterday. In fact, as I did quite bad in previous midterm, fears and stress are around my mind. Can I go through it? Can I performed normally and well not to dissapoint my parents? Can I do it? Stress came from all direction and at last, nothing to do but try my best to study for the papers. Nervous before entering and until 8pm, I was relieved. I am quite satisfied with my papers. I have no idea on how many marks will I get but just told myself that I had tried my best. Thats all.

Last 2 weeks, I tried my best to study on my economy but at last, I had no time to finish all the questions. A bit disappointed but I had tried my best already. At last, paper was distributed few days ago. Quite satisfied and in fact, I knocked my head on the table. T.T

Before ending my post, there are 3 quotes on my mind.

As long as you had tried your best, it is not a need to disappointed with the results.

Do not expect too much, try the best is enough already.

尽全力,尽本份,对得起自己

P/S Thx everyone for helping me especially James, Jessie, Way Ru, Joyce, Ling Li , Kar Yee for calming me and teaching me before exam and many more. I really appreciate it.

Memories

Omg.

The pictured was uploaded by our old friend, Junjie!!!

Totally shocked when I discovered this.

You are great man!!!

And now, I am thinking back.

The memories during that time was the most unforgetable.

Everyone in the class are playful!!!???

All of us are enjoying our studies as well as friendship between us.

Although most or all of us had changed, what I can say is I never change.

I mean mentally.

Quite miss all of you and the time we played, studied together.

When was the last time we met???

I think long time ago.

Until the coming gathering, promise to take care and all the best to all of you.

Who am I?

Long time din see u, blog.

Recently, quite busy with something or in fact, anything.

At last, I find a slot to have a blog here.

Sometimes, I am just totally speechless with myself and something.

In fact, sometimes, I just wanna get out from my current suck life and suck friends.

Oh, come on.

What is my feeling now?

Complicated, down, tired, sad, watever.

What I want now is just words from friends and family.

But...

Days passed and my mind still blur.

I seemed like losing everything.

Totally lose.

I missed all of you.

Tat Mun, Jojo, Kiat Seng, Say Lin, Bruce, Weng Yew, Ooi Siang, Yoon Kent, and so on. ( many more and I cant list all of you)

I missed the moment we chatted, classes, blow water, games, and so on.

Trust me.

The current situation is complicated.

Promise to all of you that I shall be ok as soon as possible.
It is because I have all of you.

FRIENDS.

My Song

There is a song recently on my mind...
忘记伤害 by raymond lam...
Quite nice...
当 这感觉未发生
不知道你光临
我大概还可继续散心无奈我的心
不经意着了灯
为得不到的吸引
令我不纠缠亦不忍
当 他手放在你身
才想到我是好友永没权利去伤感
忘记受过伤害
施舍最假的爱
也会令我肯相信这段感情避不开
忘记如何忍耐
但期待一夜之间醒过来
我和你便已如恋人热爱
想 想一世待你好
不需要有出路
那是我唯一快乐其实期望未算高
不拥抱便跌倒
付出的都不苦恼
被爱的当然未知道
好 即使我未夠好
连哭一声都不配你便提示我怎做
忘记受过伤害
施舍最假的爱
也会令我肯相信这段感情避不开
忘记如何忍耐
但期待一夜之间醒过来
我和你便已如恋人热爱

- No title -

Again, I am not feeling well today, no matter physically or mentally. My mind was complicated on something and made me blur. I am very tired but cnt sleep now. What a day.

I can feel the darkest side in my heart. Something was hiding on it. I am really scare and afraid. Just a small incident and whats the result? Complicated. "GREAT"!!!

Complicated and complicated. Life still on and war still on. Promises to all my friends, survive till the end.

Speechless

Today is a quite complicated day.
In fact, my feeling was just half half.
Nothing to say much.
What I want now is just a deep rest and have a think and evaluation on the current situation. Suddenly, what happened?

Happy formula

I had discovered a happy formula since months ago.
In fact, it has helped me a lot throughout the road.
Just an easy formula to make you happy.
Actually, what you can do is just think of the happy things happened around you today and what happy things that you going to do on the next day.
It was 0017 now.
Happy things that happened today around me was having a nice breakfast, nice dinner, and so on.
What happy things that I am going to do tomorrow?
Probably, level up in Restaurant City, play few nice FIFA matches, meet some nice friends, meet classmates that not seen for 2 days, and so on.
Life is just few decades.
Although wars still on and bad things happen around, life still on and cheer up.
Instead of facing life with sadness, why don't we face it with positive thinking?
I hope so.
^^

A day

Today is a quite nice but sienz day. I had a quite meaningless day. Since I woke up, what around me was just television. I had no motivation to study. Wake up, kailiang. Midterm is coming but I have no confident on it.

It was afternoon. Boring, boring, and boring. All of the sudden, my phone rang. A messege.

Great, it was mei. She had back from Australia for holidays. Wow!!! Long time did not see her.

Promise. Gathering after finished your quarantine...=.=

Friends are always the first 1 in my mind. So, take care...XD... although I said it for many times and feel myself a bit old and long gas. Aiks.

LOVE yourself

Long time ago since I updated my last article and nice to see u again.
However, I am not nice.
Without reason.
Probably, I still cant use to a new life. A new degree life.
War and war arise and I am tired with all of it.

Last week, I watched again EU and found an interesting sentence or quote on it.

In this world, no matter no one care and love you, there is still one by ur side and tats yourself.

I felt touched when I heard this.
Yup, totally agree.
Throughout the life, no matter no 1 love you, care you, stand by your side, be tough.
It is because it is a must for you to love urrself.
If you do not even love yourself, you are totally equal to giving up urself.

Thinking back.
I am still the lucky one.
I still have myself, gangs of friends, prz, cssk, and others by my side.
This is totally what I hope.

What my status now?
Say truely...
I am totally exhausted, tired and a bit hopeless on something.
What can I do?
Nothing but promise myself and others not to fall easily.

The wars have begun.
There is no way to look behing but look forward.
Accept the truths.

Memories

Ok, I would like to say my true words. It is a truth that throughout my life, I have many and uncountable nice and good memories. Secondary school gathering, primary school gathering, nice chat with nice friends, and others.
And now here is my topic. Last night, I was looking on a photo in facebook. It was a funny picture. Few people were dancing happily. It was a nice picture but it linked me to another incident. It had left an bad memories forever and forever. It was painful and cant be cured.
Viewing the picture and thinking, whats wrong!!!??? I cant or even scare to think much and deeper on the incident.
Last night I purposely sleep early so that I can have a deep think on the incident. It had left a scar on my mind and cant be deleted.
Sometimes, I just complicated and tired. Problems arised again and again. Checking on my msn list, friends for sharing problems and secrets are much in number. Jo Ee, Lengzai, Maggie. However, one is busy for final exam, one is idle queen (just joking), one is not always online. And the main point is, there is not a need to heard on my suck problem. All of you are nice but sometimes, there is something to be solved by my own. It will be secret forever and ever in my mind and heart.
I never had a dream come true...
I am not a dark knight in maple but in my life too!!!

Bad Day

I like the song "bad day" by Alvin and the Chipmunks. And today, "GREAT", just accept it, kailiang. Until now, 2321, today is a bad day. Really a bad day.

Waking up at 0715 and I need to prepare to go back Kampar. And you know? I was totally exhausted but need to accept the truth that there will be class at 1530. T.T

Paying my rental after back Kampar. "GREAT" again. Without reason, my bike ROSAK!!! What the... No choice but walking around the hostel area to pay my rental and found myself a good excuse... I wanna do exercise. Walking under the sun at 10am ++ !!!??? Kailiang, you are totally "GREAT".

"Later want to go to school by Doreen car? At 1340"

(Thinking... class stared at 1530 lea)

"No thanks, I can go by bike."

(I regret 1 hour later. I did not realise that my bike ROSAK. But its too late.....)

At last, choiceless again but need to borrow from Nicholas.

Again, walking under the sun to his house and the bike...

Totally speechless and I cant used to it.

Sorry Nicholas.

1700

Its time to distribute notes to classmates.

Again, bad things.

2 classmates did not have the enough notes.

"GREAT"!!!

"GREAT" things do not go away easily.

Having my dinner at 2130!!!

The main point was

Once I back home to bath.

I did a stupid action.

I used head shampoo to clean my body.

I cant bear it.

Argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

"GREAT" things were around today but in fact, GREAT thing happened too!!!

Let me think.

Having McD as breakfast (I am lovin' it)

Having a nice chat with Mei (As usual, a nice friend...XD)

I know that.

I am still the lucky 1.

Nightmares

Hi blog and nice to see u again blog...

Well, back to my topic...

As I mentioned before in my previous articles...

I was blur, blur and blur...

"GREAT" !!!

And what's the effect???

Nightmares...

I was told by Daphne before that having dreams every night is normal. How if having some complicated and sometimes even scary dreams aka nightmares!!!???

For me, nightmares can be catogarised into 2 types. The real one and the fake one. The fake one just happened in this morning and cant forget it...

It was 0830 in the morning. My phone alarm clock rang and whats next? I slept again...T.T and the nightmare started.

The synopsis:

As usual, I was the main character of the nightmare. I was walking with someone in a famous shopping mall and all of the sudden, something appeared and "GREAT" !!!

I ran, ran and ran. Finally, I hide myself in an restaurant in the shopping mall. It was late at nite I think and I need to wait to be rescued. And at last, I rescued myself.... How!!!??? Easy and simple by by just woke up. My phone showed 1040. Wow!!! A nightmare that had taken me 2 hours ++!!!???

What happened actually!!!??? Stress? Tiredness!!!??? Aiks, whatever... Maybe, it happened because of you, Real nightmare. Probably, I was tired with the lecture and tutorial class. Aiks, cant used to it and I think I need to arrange back my biological clock...

Fairyland In Reality

It is a truth that just a semester break had changed me much. No matter in look, attitude, feeling, and so on.

F. I. R. is my idol and I liked their LYDIA, FLY AWAY, YOUR SMILE, and so on. F. I. R. is also called as Fairyland In Reality.

Ok, back to my topic. Thinking, how good if I can just live in the fairyland, without any stress and no need to bother much. Just living happily.

Comment on this semester break? Wow, again, "GREAT". In fact, I was just like living in a FAKE world. All the things around me are just... just... speechless. Just wanna leave all things behind and have a simple, normal and happy life. [Hey, I am just a normal person ok?]
And hey, someone please give me a "shot" to wake me up.

Suddenly, I have a song in my mind with the lyrics.

光芒 by F. I. R.
在久旱未雨的地方
被谎言围绕着的村庄　
泪水被蒸发　
经历一个世纪的迷惘　
希望被风化　
梦想难道都是奢望　
I just want　　
找一个方向　
找一种力量　
让等待的大雨会落下　　
展开了翅膀　
将悲伤都释放　
挣开那捆绑　　
有一个方向　
有一种力量　
就朝着梦里风景出发　
在大雨之后　
的第一道彩虹　
耀眼的光芒　
刺穿已枯萎的幻想用生命呐喊巨大声响　
充满了希望　
纵然冷漠是一道灰墙　
谁又该沮丧　
因为你而感动而坚强
Oh my god

Fairyland In Reality.............

P/S Promise, shall be ok
P/S Thank for the words and lyrics again, lengzai...lenglui appreciates it...lolz

Complicated

My mind is supposed to be clear after having a nice bath. However, in fact, it is not. I am still blur now. Before bath, I even had my draft on my mind for the article already. But now, empty!

Sometimes, I just admire and even envy on some of my friends. When problems occur, friends are around to help them.

Ok, well, same things occur on me too!!! But sometimes, it is a truth that sometimes, there is things that needed to be sloved on ur own. Secret and secret, the burden in my mind is extremely heavy. Nothing but I wanna realease it.

I have many secret tellers, chatting through msn and face to face. Actually, I really appreciate it. Why? It is because I know that I shall never walk alone. Because of you, I am survived in wars. Just like the lyrics of REACH by S Club 7.
"I got you and you got me"

Here is the chance and I would like to thank my secret tellers.
Nichollas and Miki [Always think of you two when I have problems]
Daphne [I still remembered yours words, defend yourself... ]
Lengzai [Appreciate for always company me in msn when problems and wars happened]
Melvin , Mei , bla bla bla....
I do not know what all of you think of me but deep in my mind, thank you and appreciate.

However, sometimes, there are secrets deep in my mind and I need to slove by myself.
The wars had started again...
My SNIPER RIFLE must READY...

- No title-

Great and hi blog...
Finally, I have some time slot to have an article here...

3 more days...
It will be a new life...
Great or "Great"!!!???
Who know???
I just know that throughout the month of May...
I was just having a complicated, useless, tired, no motivation life...

Complicated of everything and until now, I still cant solve all of it.
I am not GOD...
Time is insufficient...
Stress is coming from anywhere...
Studies, Love (???), bla bla bla....

Studies...
Had a nice chat with edwin on thursday night...
According to him...
I knew that...
Degree life will be challenging...
isn't it is "GREAT" ???
Whatever...

LOVE!!!???
Wow...
Since now I realise that I had written a few about my LOVE...
GREAT huh????
Haha...
This had been discussed few times by my friends and even my relatives!!!???
It was just in two weeks ago...
I was just too excited and happy keep on talking on a female friend...
Hmmm.....
I talked it for times and mom cant bear it...
At last...
"Kailiang, you and her come from two different world and she is not cup of your tea..."
Aiks... totally speechless...
Another day by another person,
"Kailiang, do you have girlfriend???"
"Nope."
"Wow!!! Are you gay!!??"
What the...
Speechless again...

Sometimes I just can say it...
When you are having hopes on certain things, there will be disappointment...
When you are totally down on certain things, there will be hopes...
Great huh???

Thinking...
Its time to change...
To change into a better person...
Just like Transporter...
Perfect in anything...
Strength, Agility and Intelligent...

Feeling nothing

Recently,
just like no motivation...
dun wanna care on anything...
and...
kailiang...
what happened to u???

Losing direction...
Need to stop it right now...
0031...
Degree starts soon....
Battles start...

Bless me pls...
prz cssk and all my lovely friends....
Shall be ok...

Stories of sem break

Hi blog, nice to see u again.
It was a long time since I updated my previous article.
And finally, I had the courage to have my article.

Sometimes, I just can say "GREAT".
Just a sem break and it had changed me much.
No matter my look, attitude, and so on.
Probably, doing nothing in the house makes me to think too much.
Negative thinking was having a visit to my mind.

There was a time, I was totally down.
Disappointed with everything. (Negative thinking)
But soon,
"GREAT"!!!
Miracle happened and I recovered fast!!! (Just like Wolverine, can heal himself...=.=)
Because of you,
FRIENDS!!!!
Comments by stephy, lengzai, ETC reinforced me.
Advise from Ashley always great.
And others.
Thank you all and
I shall know that
I shall never walk alone

Ok, back to topic.
What else I had done in sem break?
Actually, nothing besides MSN, TV, eat, games and slip.
What a holiday!!!

Luckily,
I still had some gatherings with friends for movies, yum cha and so on.
If not, you can "imagine"...

At last,
I am having a sienz sem break...

Rating: 30 / 100

A message to Stephy and others

Well,
since I cant write anything on my chatbox (T.T + @@ + ==),
leaving a message here is better.

Well,
anyway,
thx Stephy for ur words,
although I do not know you (^^).

Well,
to Stephy and others who wanna know more on me,
just add me on my msn...

realkailiang@hotmail.com

^^

Meaningless days

What a day! Opps, sorry. I think it should be what a two days. It is a truth that I was having meaningless life since these two days. Slept at around 2 am and woke up at 12 pm. I think, kailiang, you are the pro.
These two days. Opps, sorry again. I think it should be since the semester break. I was having myself in a meaningless, boring, useless, bla bla bla life. Besides eat, sleep, tv, and internet, what else can I do? Nothing at all. Looking at myself. " KAILIANG, YOU ARE "GREAT"!!! "
During study time, I jus can say, how boring studies are. How good if I can have a CS, DOTA or FIFA. Now, "great", I aam totally bored with all of them.
Since te last article posted, I had a quite sleepless night. I cant sleep well.(That y I woke up at 12 pm!!!!!!!!) Looking on the comments given, I shall know that, at least, I shall never walk alone. Thx Elvis and anyonomous.

P/S As usual, I am not wanna getting all of your attention ok? PLS......
P/S At last, I have my 3rd and 4th rules.

What??

Previously, I think it was 4 years ago. I saw an article regarding stress. Having a brief look on it and whats the result? I laughed loudly and told my mother that it is impossible to be happened on myself.

4 years passed and what happened to kailiang? "Great". A guy fulled of stress due to studies, relationship and so on.

Recently, maybe, due to sem break, it caused me to think too much. I think.....

Thinking, I am a quite... no idea with the words to describe me.

Wat is my current situation now? I think... A sniper which does not have a sniper rifle with himself.

As usual, I cried just now. Twice. Sometimes, I just wanna ignore my current situation and having a new life. However, who can give me a chance??? TELL ME!!!

Sometimes, just feel sinez with those who do something wrong but just ignore and blame to others...

Sry, I cant continue....

(To be continued??????)

P/S Lengzai and Ashley, thx for the words

Nice and perfect GATHERING

9 May 2009.
It was a big day.

Having a gathering with my primary school friends.

Wow!!!

Great, kailiang.

In fact, as usual, I miss them very very much.

(Thinking)

When was the last time I meet them???

Almost a year ago...

T.T

Woke up at 9 in the morning to prepare myself

Although it started at 11

I just cant wait to meet all of them

I even wanna skip breakfast

T.T

At last

I met them

Peng Peng

Daphne

Melvin

Waiting for others

Looking on Peng Peng and Daphne

No idea but

Changed much

And even cant recognised them

Geng huh?

Walking around and around

Finally

We reached cinema

Wolverine vs Star Trek

And at last

Wolverine won

But totally speechless when Peng Peng told us that

She goes for lunch with her mom since she watched it before

T.T and =.=

Lunch before movie

And thanks junjie

12 doughnuts

What are you doing?

And at last

I ate 5 of them

Great huh?

"Thank you"!!!

Movie after lunch. Nice movie. Just that funny Emily who keeped on kicking my seat. T.T

P/S Gambit is yeng, geng and cool!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Next destination- Food and tea. Just have a nice chat there. Wow!!! Our current situation, studies, funny things, dreams, comment on the movie just now. And as usual, I prefer to listen than talk. Haha!!! (Sorry my friends... ^^) I am not quite good in communicating but I am a good listener...XD. At last, we took some pictures there. Say cheese!!!!

Finally, Camenn reached to joined us but Emily had left due to certain thing. T.T....Nothing to do after that and we decided to have a walk on the mall. We are even helping Melvin on choosing present to his mom for the coming Mothers' Day.

P/S We met a clown with amazing height and surprisingly, we took picture with him. Something happened. Junjie carried me up and as expected, people around were looking on me. Shy, Swt and "Fish". But I like it...XD

Finally, a decision. Bring Melvin house down. We paid a visit to melvin house. GREAT. Being friend for many years, this was the first time I had my visit to his house. Nice house with a pond in the living room. GENG!!!! Having poker game aka Chor Dai D there. Pity Melvin for always being the las place aka "ass hole"!!!???

At last, 1800, I needed to go. Saying goodbye to them, deep in my heart, I shall know, I shall miss them forever and ever until the next gathering.

Comment: Lets take Liverpool football club as the example. In the Liverpool squad team, all of you, ya, primary school friends are playing the role of DANIEL AGGER. A professional defender. Deep in my heart, defenders means the last defence line for me. It means that, no matter what happened, all of you still can defend me. (Und...I am also a bit blur)

Rating: 1000/ 100
I like this picture the most (Camenn and Peng Peng, sry for not in the picture...=,=)

Fallen Angel

Recently, as usual, confused of something. Although I had seeked advise from friends, it did not helped much. Something happened and this time, I think, it was my own fault. I should not do such stupid thing, making myself in deep trouble and complicated.

Just saw something and surprisingly, I stopped there. I think, GAME OVER!!!
Stop it, kailiang....

Fallen Angel...

No title

Counting...
How many times I laugh today???
Ya...
2 times...
Just 2 times...
What happened???
I am just complicated with the current situation, current people and current kailiang...
Suddenly...
All problems arise...
And I cant bear with it...
I am just a normal person...
And...
Not lying...
I cried 1 hour ago...
Silently in bathroom...
Probably...
Stress of everything...
But...
As usual...
I am fine now...
Cos I know that...
I cant down...

Thinking...

P/S If u think that I am just wanna get ur attention or ur sympathy, u are wrong!!!

Complicated

Watching the football match between Arsenal and Chelsea...
Nice match...
But my thinking was not nice...
How to say it...
I am complicated with the current me...
Who am I actually to all of you???

Suddenly...
My sniping skill...
Turns bad...
All things go down...
Where is the sem 3 positive thinking kailiang???
Back please...

I was given a perception by others...
I am considered a siao person and like to joke...
My aim is to let my friends be happy...
In front of all of you...
Actually...
Deep in my heart...
I am happy...
And I shall know that...
I shall never walk alone...

However...
How if I am down???
Negative and unexpected things happened...
And who know that...
I am crying badly in the bed???

I am not a perfect person...
Although I like "Perfect" by Simple Plan...
I think...
I think...
Cant tell much...
Sry all...

Problems...
Is coming...

P/S Msn me if you can help me. THX.

Evaluation

Just viewed Daphne's blog and found something interesting...
I had my test and here is the result...

Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.
Your views on education
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.
The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.
How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.
What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.
Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Thinking...

Comment:
Quite right with the current kailiang...
80% agree with it...
Thx Daphne for it...
XD

Rating:
200 / 100

May gathering 2009 (part 2)

Second destination- Infi.
Wow!!! I had never went for game with my friends for a long time.
8 friends
Lets start the game
4 versus 4
I even had my words before game
WHO WOULD LIKE TO TEAMMATE WITH A NOOB?
Ostan, Tat Mun, Paul and me versus Bruce, Jasper, Wei Xiang and Gerald
2 games and in the first game
OMG
Vengeful Spirit
A good hero but I had never use it before
At last
Luckily
I am not a feeder
And I farm quite good
Ranking
Satisfied
2nd game
Random again
And sweat again
Undying
Used it before
But now the hero is a strength hero
Totally no idea
Repick and this time
MIRANA
Still know on how to play
But
Never kill 1
T.T
At last
My team won
Ranking
Not bad
^^

Before and After

Thinking and self evaluating...
Looking on myself...
Compared to before...
I had changed much...

Before, deep in my mind, my ice elements are more than fire elements...
After, my fire elements are more than ice elements...

Before, I was just a childish guy...
After, due to situation, environment, and other factors, it is a need for me to become mature...

Before, when someone did something wrong, I should hard o forgive him or her...
After, thinking again, forgive someone is a good choice (depends on situations)...

Before, I was easily played, cheated, and used...
After, I am more observant, SNIPER IN GAME, SNIPER IN REAL LIFE...

Before, I do not always smile...
After, without reasons, I like to smile to all...

Before, mind was filled with negative thinking...
After, mind is filled with positive thinking and confidence...

Before, I would like to make decision without thinking much...
After, I shall make a decision after considering all the factors...

Hoping for a better kailiang...

May gathering 2009 (part 1)

2/5/09. It was a special day for me not because of saturday where i can have my rest. At last, I had gathering with my secondary school friends. I had never meet most of them since 2008. I even did not attend khan khan birthday as I have another gathering. Seemed busy huh?

It was an exhausting day. However, it worthed. As I said before, they are having an important role in my life. Seriously, without them, without kailiang. Again, seemed a bit serious huh?

Ok, lets go back to my topic. A big day. I started my gathering since 11am and thanks jin yuan's mum for the fetch. Our first destination was jusco food court (zadou-ing). Lunch. Nice and deep chat between us. Just nice and perfect. Most of them even shocked with my currrent look. With earring. Haha, hey man, juz try it!!! RM5 and just nice. Hihi.

Time for the big show!!! We had our singk at 12pm sharp!!! Wow, as usual, nice time with all of them. Quite funny with yuea weng for keep on logging facebook and asking abou mafia war. LOL. Another thing. OMG. The second time I think. I felt the sound of Ostan. Just nice. LOL. ME? Oh yea, as usual, blow water and singk lo! What else!!??? I am not a pro. Just a song can make me having sore throat. At last, I was totally down, 唯一 by王力宏. What I can say is... I LOSE TO YOU! Straight no sound after this song...

(To be continued)

My comment for the previous article

Having a brief look on the previous artcle, thinking...
I am quite agree with the article...
Throughout the life...
We meet 3 people...
The one who like you...
The one who you like...
And lastly...
The one that having the life with you forever...

Again...
As usual...
These 3 people...
Are not the same person...

It will be a lie...
If I tell u that...
I had no feeling on any girl before...
But...
It is ok for me now...

Thinking...
For me...
LOVE...
What is it???
As the lyrics of "Never had a dream come true"
"Love is a strange and funny thing" ???
爱是付出,爱是无私的???
爱一个人不一定要拥有她,她幸福就好???
AGREE!!!

I think...
For me...
Let it be...
随缘吧!!!!!

Rating: 101 / 100

Another meaningful article

人的一生會遇上的四個人
人生就是為了找尋愛的過程，
每個人的人生都要找到四個人
第一個是自己,
第二個是你最愛的人，
第三個是最愛你的人，
第四個是共度一生的人.
首先會遇到你最愛的人,
然後體會到愛的感覺；
因為了解被愛的感覺，
所以才能發現最愛你的人；
當你經歷過愛人與被愛，
學會了愛，
才會知道什麼是你需要的，
也才會找到最適合你，
能夠相處一輩子的人。
但很悲哀的，
在現實生活中，
這三個人通常不是同一個人；
你最愛的，往往沒有選擇你；
最愛你的，往往不是你最愛的；
而最長久的，偏偏不是你最愛也不是最愛你的，
只是在最適合的時間出現的那個人。
你，會是別人生命中的第幾個人呢？
沒有人是故意要變心的，他愛你的時候是真的愛你，
可是他不愛你的時候也是真的不愛你了，
他愛你的時候沒有辦法假裝不愛你；
同樣的，
他不愛你的時候也沒有辦法假裝愛你。
當一個人不愛你要離開你，
你要問自己還愛不愛他，
如果你也不愛他了，
千萬別為了可憐的自尊而不肯離開；
如果你還愛他，
你應該會希望他過得幸福快樂，
希望他跟真正愛的人在一起，
絕不會阻止，
你要是阻止他得到真正的幸福，
就表示你已經不愛他了，
而如果你不愛他，
你又有什麼資格指責他變心呢？
愛不是佔有，
你喜歡月亮，
不可能把月亮拿下來放在臉盆裡，
但月亮的光芒仍可照進你的房間。
換句話說，
你愛一個人，
也可以用另一種方式擁有，
讓愛人成為生命裡的永恆回憶，
如果你真愛一個人，
就要愛他原來的樣子─愛他的好，
也愛他的壞：
愛他的優點，
也愛他的缺點，
絕不能因為愛他，
就希望他變成自己所希望的樣子，
萬一變不成就不愛他了。
真正愛一個人是無法說出原因的，
你只知道無論何時何地、
心情好壞，
你都希望這個人陪著你；
真正的感情是兩人能在最艱苦中相守，
也就是沒有絲毫要求。
畢竟，
感情必須付出，
而不是只想獲得；
分開是一種必然的考驗，
如果你們感情不夠穩固，
只好認輸，
真愛是不會變成怨恨的。
兩人在談情說愛的時候，
最喜歡叫對方發誓，
許下承諾我們為什麼要對方發誓，
就是因為我們不相信對方，
我們根本不相信情人，
而這些山盟海誓又很不切實際：
海枯石爛、
地老天荒，
都不能改變我對你的愛!明知道海不會枯、
石不會爛、
地不會老、
天不會荒；
就算會，
也活不到那時候。
許下諾言的時候千萬注意，
不要許下可以實現的諾言，
最好是承諾做不到的事，
反正做不到的，
隨便說說也不要緊，
請記住：
'不可能實現的諾言最動人'
在愛情裡，
說的是一套，
做的是另一套；
講的人不相信，
聽的人也不相信。
你呢？
找到了第幾個？
茫茫人海中，
你遇見了誰？
誰又遇見了你？

Family, Friends, Support...

Again, I have no idea for the title for my article.
Again, I am complicated with the incidents happened around my friends and I.
Again, I lose my direction.

Again and again. I had just read 2 emails sent by shirley and lengzai. These 2 emails woke me up a bit especially sirley's email. Having a look on shirley's email, I found out that, I am very very or extremely lucky compared to the others in the email. I had learnt on how to appreciate for what I am having now.

Compare to the people in the pictures of the email, Iam considered lucky and the problems that I faced now were just an extremely small matter and thinking in my mind, I can handle it.

Living for almost 19 years, after facing many tough and bitter experiences and incident, I know and realised that, I cant be dependent, immature, emo easily anymore. When I was down, thinking in my mind, I know that, I still have my family and friends around and support me. Promise myself.

To my dear parents and friends, no matter what happened, I shall be in your side. No matter what happened.

P/S Finally, I have tile for my article...

Secret

Comparing to my secondary school life...
Nowadays Kailiang...
Had transformed into another person...
A person who are more independent...
Calm...
Mature (XD)...

Comparing the situation...
Totally different...
Some seniors had told me a fact and I am strong agree with it...
University is just life a society...
In this "society"...
I had faced many things and people...
Which are totally different with secodary school...
Some friends around...
Are faker...
Do not want others to suceed and always want to be the no.1...
Masked...
Etc...

What is the result?
Secrets...
Compared to before...
I have more and more secret...
That cannot to be shared with others...
I need to face it alone...

Secret and secret...
Sometimes...
These make me happy...
Make me complicated...
Make me down...
Make me stressful...

Comparing again...
Compared to before...
If I have secrets that are stressful and complicated...
I might be cried in sem 1 and sem 2...
But not in sem 3 anymore...
Probably...
Since when...
I had found my confidence back...
Think positively...

I am not pro...
Sometimes...
I am tired to face secrets...
It was scary...
Sometimes...
Secrets are need to be shared...
Throughout my university life...
I had shared many secrets...
With many friends...
Thx and appreciate all of you...

Deep in my heart...
I know...
I shall never walk alone...

Rules

Well, as I mentioned in the previous article, I like to obey rules. I have 3 rules and just now, someone breaks the rules again. Probably did not see my articles in the blog.

Ok, I said it, I have many good and nice friends. Secondary school friends, TA7, TA8, aaron and gang, lengzai, yy. However, I still make mistakes. I was regret for adding her in my msn list.

What happened actually? Well, at 2315, I think, I was challenged again. She just nudge me and asked for my cost accounting midterm marks. I am totallyangry and sienz. Juz...

Whatever, deep in my mind, a decision again. It was a really tough decision. Thinking... I cant always be he tame one. I quite appreciate words by Daphne last 3 weeks. Defend yourself. Maybe, I need to think once again whether you are my friend or not.

I am the one who like to obey rules. And please, if you cant accept it, just go away and get out from my life. You wanna know my marks and compare again? No way!!!

As usual, Transporter aka Jason Statham has 3 rules for his beloved car.
For me, I have 3 rules or even more, ok?

Thx and appreciate for your word last 3 weeks, Daphne.

Nice chat

Transporter has 3 rules for his beloved car...
And I still remember it...
Rule no.1...
Respect the car and the car will respect you...
Rule no.2...
Greet the driver...
Rule no.3...
Safety belt...

Well for me...
I have 3 rules too...
Rule no.1...
I hate result comparing, noise, and so on...
Rule no.2...
I like and enjoy msn chatting...
Rule no.3...
[Forget already...sry]


Well...
Recently...
A person breaks the rules...
And that is rule no.1...
During that time...
My class was given compliment...
Once I walked out from the lecture hall...
Result comparing happened...
By her...
Again...
I hate it...


Just now...
A FRIEND obey the 2nd rule...
Lengzai...
Appreciate...


Since when...
I am blur...
And complicated by many things...
I like to obey the rules...
However...
Some of my friends...
Just like to break the rules...
Somemore...
Seperation...
Makes my mind blur and blur...
I lose my direction...


At last...
I cant stand it...
I wanna explode...
Feeling like wanna....[no idea for the words]
Therefore...
I find lengzai in msn...
Appreciate for the chat...

Having my studies after chat...
Still ok...
But cant concentrate...
Probably...
Aiks...

At last...
Again...
Have a nice face to face chat with nicholas...
Omg...
We chat from 2340 till 0150...
I think...
Again...
A bit long gas...
But...
Appreciate for company me the whole night...
I am feeling better now...

Looking on the sky...
Feeling the cool winds...
I...
Am fine...

P/S Appreciate Lengzai and Nickholas... Both of you are given compliment...

My story of sem 3

Ok, I say it. It is the last semester for me in foundation. It is only 7 weeks. It is week 6 already and 1 more week, it is time for us to seperate.
Throughout this semester, I had treasured many things. First of all, the relatioship between my friends and I had improved much. Since I joined TA7 in semester 2, as I said before, I had known many new friends. Tet Yoon, Chia Seng, Hor Lap, Stacy, Amanda, Hiang, Thomas,JJ, Shirley, Ivonne, and so on. Say truely, I quite enjoy to chat, play, msn, blow water, and so on with all of you. Same to you, Rong Han, Mun Chn, Kee, Chia Keong, Nickholas, Su Wen, Su Fei, Siew Jin, Mei San, and so on.
Secondly, gathering. As I said in the previous article, I had a gala time with all of you, TA7. Say truely, I love all of you. What I can say to all of you is professional. Sitting together to have dinner, I quite enjoy the dinner. 6 carS, 6 drivers, 6 transporters, 28 persons, just nice. Movie in ipoh after is just perfect and nice. Before movie, we even had a nice walk in jusco together. I miss the moment. Hope can have it again...^^
Thirdly, confidence. I had saw one of my friends in his msn pm. Confidence... make the difference. Well, since semester 1, I was given a nickname. Faker. I just speechless with it. However, I think I am finding my confidence back well. Sincerely, I hope that my confidence can back as fast as possible.
Fourth, in semester 3, I had known some new friends. Yy and Lengzai. Nothing to say but just nice friends. High hands. I am glad to make frineds with them especially lengzai. I still remember that I had a bad time when semester 2 final result are out, I was not quite satisfied with it. I was even challenged by someone. Thank for the advise, lengzai. No thank but appreciate.
Last week, a sir came to my lecture class to give compliment to those with 3 pointer. What I can say is sienz. Isn't it a bit result oriented? Somemore, I was challenged again. Sienz. However, I am ok now.
In conclusion, I had a nice time in semester 3. 1 more week left and appreciate time left between us. Promise, I shall miss all of you.

Rating: 10 /10

P/S: Photo taking before study week

Moment

Since the last few days, actually, I had written 2 articles and to be published in the blog. However, at last, I have no idea on what actually I was writing. Listening to Say Goodbye by S Club 7, I realised that, my studies for foundation is going to end.
Different people have different perceptions and thinking. Well, for me, it is a sad thing. Since primary school, saying goodbye is always a hard thing to me. Maybe, in front of all of you, I was still laughing but who knows, I maybe cry behind all of you.
Now is sem 3. There are just 6 days and 90 minutes left for my foundation studies to end. Say truely, if I can make it, I sincerely hope that I can back to sem 1 to know all of you better and again.
Some of my friends told me that it is not a need to cry because I am a male. However, I am still a human. I have emotions and feeling. This is not a matter of male and female.
Why I shall cry? Maybe, about 6 more days and we cant meet each other as usual as now. Throughout my foundation studies, I am glad and happy to know many friends, even A to Z. Alexis, Aaron, Blackfish, Chia Seng, Danny, Enrin, Fiona, G...[no] , Hiang, Ivonne, JJ, Kee, Luis, Lengzai, Mun Chun, Mei San, Nngel, O...[no], and PQRSTUVWXYZ.
Sem 1 is a nice sem. Therefore, I would like to than all members of TA8 for being my friends. Without all of you, there will be no kailiang. Trust me.
Sem 2 is a nice sem too! TA7 had left many beautiful and nice memories to me. Saying truely, I love TA7 and TA8. In TA7, I am glad to know hor lap, chia seng, tet yoon, hiang, thomas, jj, shirley, ivonne, and so on. Trust me again. All of you helped me a lot when I just joined TA7. With the accompany from all of you, I know, I shall never walk alone.
Looking on my TD friends and TC friends, they are going to leave for further education in setapak. Besides sadness, what else? No more!!! I shall miss them.
Wednesday was a nice day. It was the first time where I had class gathering with all of them. Having dinner in gopeng and movie in jusco ipoh. Say truely again, I was touched. We had 12 rounds in the cinema. It was an action movie. Howeve, besides nervous, what I can feel is touching. Thinking. A gang of 28 friends were having dinner and movie together. Thank you all! I shall miss the moment. A sweet moment.
Having the ride back from Ipoh at about 0115. Throughout the journey, hiang and shirley were discussing about the movie. I was just having a look on the "scenery" throughout the journey. Sudden in my mind. Time between us together is not much already. In my mind, I told myself, I shall miss the moment between you and me. Who is YOU? Is all of you, my friends. (crying)
Listening to Say Goodbye and Never Had Dream Come True by S Club 7, I was crying. Why? Seperation. Again, I say it, when I proceed to degree, I shall miss all of you and the moment between us. Sweet moment. The moment we quarrel, play together, blow water, play fool.......

Lyrics from Say Goodbye

Sometimes goodbye,
though it hurts in your heart,
is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye,
though it hurts,
is the only way now for you and me
Though it's the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
'Cause true love never dies

My story of Sem 2

Sem 2 was a challenging semester. I had a quite nice and tough time too! What made this semester challenging was I had changed my class from 8 to 7. Maybe, in their mind, I was a betrayer... But, what can I say is, I am not!!! I miss u all OK???
Sem 2, I had a bad time during the first 2 weeks. Luckily, with the help of tet yoon and chia seng, I passed it calmly. What the problem? SECRET!!! Haha...XD
Sem 2, again, I had a tough time during assignment. However, compared to sem 1, I was more comfortable. It was because of you all, tet yoon, chia seng, hor lap, stacy and amanda. I like the group very much. Thank you all!!! Remember, we are THE FOUR...hahahahaha
Sem 2, I had a quite good time with members of TA7. Thomas, JJ, Shirley, Hoong Hoong, Stacy, Chia Seng, Tet Yoon, Hiang, Rebecca, Meow, Hui Jie, Janet, Wendy, Ivonne and so on. All of you are nice friends and what can I say is I am glad to meet all of you.
According to my friends, I was cold-blooded during sem 2. What can I say is during that time, I am tired of friendship. I lose my direction and ... Probably down with stress, assignment, exam, and result comparing from those suckers. I hate it!
Throughout sem 2, suddenly, I was having many advisors and counsellor. 14 weeks is a long time. Throughout this 14 weeks, Jo ee, Hojun, Tet Yoon, and so on. What I can say is thank all of you. Appreciate...^^
Besides making new friends with TA7, I had known more on my housemates. Although I do not know all of your name well, I am glad to be friends and housemates with all of you. Aaron, Daniel, Boon Keong, Nick, and so on.
Before end, I would like to thank those who remembered my birthday. Since I was born, I think, I had never celebrate my birthday formally with my friends. However, this year, I just cant believe that I received many sms and comments from all of you. I was touched. Even the day after my birthday, Siok Hiang and gang were nice enough to "belanja" me to have "tang yuan". What I can say is, I love you all!!!
New year celebration. What a year. It was the first year where I did not celebrate new year in ipoh. However, in kampar, I had a gala time. Having a nice dinner with tet yoon, chia seng, hor lap, rebecca, stacy and his bf, huey jie, and fish. Thank you!!!
In conclusion, compared to sem 1, I was having a peaceful and calm semmester. Just nice!!!

Rating 9/ 10

My story of Sem 1

Since I started my university life in May 2008, it was almost 1 year ago. I still remember that I was extremely nervous with reason. Probably, university life wat... I never tried it before. Thats why...
After having lecture class in first week, finally, in week 2, I started my tutorial class. Looking around, I was just speechless. Well, compared to secondary school life, classmates seemed a bit...(no idea with the words to describe them.) Probably we were not wearing uniform and can bring handphone to school... XD
Looking around my classmates, they are quite nice. Within weeks, I knew all of them but most of them are male...=.=''' As usual, during that time, say truely, I was not quite know girls in the class, probably I am studying in male school diring secondary time.
However, I was happy. Again, within more time, I mixed well with all of them. Cj, CK, Kee, Mun Chun, Vincent, Winds, See Yan, Su Fei, Su Wen, Mei San, Siew Jin, Fong Fong, Hui Ying, etc... I also know Chia Seng and Danny too! ^^
Throughout sem 1, many thing happened. Since Mei San was chosen as the new class rep. , our class was having a "visit" to Pizza Hut. Together, we were having a gala time there. First time, I was having a close interaction with all of them.
During sem1, say truely, I was having a hard time. I needed to battle with stress. I must study hard to achieve and passed my exam with flying colours. I was also nervous, complicated and down with assignment. During that time, I quarantined myself. I am disappointed and seemed not to chat with friends.
Something happened. A day, I was invited to participate in the birthday party of Mei Qi. The party helped much. I was having a good time with all of them. A cheerful Kailiang was back. Sincerely, I would like to thank all of you. Without all of you, maybe I...
When "ASSIGNMENT" was mentioned ny tutor, the first reaction was nervous. From the first English assignment to public speaking assignment, I had tried my best. And I was still satisfied with the marks.
I was really having a hard time during my Computer Studies assignment. We were rushing hard for it. I still remembered the scene. Since the assignment was needed to be passed up by 2.45 pm in the afternoon of Friday, since Wednesday, I did not sleep for the coming days until the assignment was passed up.Counting. I had never slept for 63 hours[I had 2 hours nap throughout the 63 hours] I had tried my best for it. Looking on other groups who had finished with their assignment, I was feeling envy during that time. At least they can have a nice dream. It was 2 silent night. All in my house were sleeping except me. On friday, ater attending class, my group and I still needed to rush the assignment with the remaining time. Finally, at 2.35 pm, or assignment was passed up. Relieved??? No. I took a bus ride back to my house and without resting, I started my studes for my coming midterm paper. I ended my paper at 7pm and had my dinner until 8pm. Finally, Kailiang can have a nice dream...
In conclusion, Sem 1, is a nice sem for me. I had known many new friends. TA8, tet yoon, chia seng, hiang, ETC...

Rating= 9.5 / 10

Say Goodbye

Throughout the 3rd sem of my foundation...
This song...
Helps me passed through many difficult time...
I shall miss u all...

Say Goodbye by S Club 7

In the years to come
Will you think about these moments that we shared
In the years to come
Are you gonna think it over
And how we lived each day with no regrets
Nothing lasts forever though we want it to
The road ahead holds different dreams for me and you
Sometimes goodbye, though it hurts in your heart,is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye, though it hurts,is the only way now for you and me
Though it's the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
'Cause true love never dies
In a year from now
Maybe there'll be thingswe'll wish we'd never said
In a year from now
Maybe we'll see each other
Standing on the same street corner, no regrets
Each and every end is always written in the stars
If only I could stop the world
I'd make this last
Sometimes goodbye, so it hurts in your heart,is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye, so it hurts,is the only way now for you and me
Though it's the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye (so say goodbye)
But don't you cry
'Cause true love never dies
And when you need my arms to run into
I'll comfort you
Nothing will ever change the way I feel
Sometimes goodbye, though it hurts in your heart,is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye, though it hurts,is the only way now for you and me
Though it's the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every day
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
`Cause a true love never dies

Recently

Well...
Without reasons...
Today (Yesterday I think...0104 now wat...lolz)...
I had many words...
Wanna say it out...
But...
Dunnoe how to say...

Recently...
Many of my friends are having their and assignment...
What can I say is...
Keep up...
Cheer up...
My friends...

Recently...
Or yesterday...
Is April Fool...
Quite a nice day...
Cos...
It is chia seng birthday...
And...
I kena tipu twice in juz half an hour...
by the same person...
LENGZAI...
Am I too noob...
Or...
LENGZAI is too pro...
Dunnoe...
=.=lll

Recently...
Or yesterday(again)...
I felt coldness in my heart...
I just lose my direction...
Thinking...
COLD...
What a word...

Recently...
I felt disappointed...
Without reason...
Maybe...
Sem 3 is going to end soon...
I shall miss my friend...
All my friends...
Trust me...
Saying goodbye is always a hard thing for me...

Recently...

Complicated

Since when...
I am blur and do not know...
How many times my title for my article is...
Complicated...

Well...
Back to my main topic...
I had a bad day today...
Without reason...
I saw Luis today...
Extra excited...
Rushed to him and juz almost fell down...
Funny rite???
Luckily...
Not many people saw this happened...
If not..
Maybe...
I shall be popular and laughed...
=.=

After having my tutorial class...
I started my studies...
Oh God...
Just thinking...
Why I cannot concentrate on my studies???
Give me a reason please...

Having my finance lecture class today...
Oh god...
Again...
I was not quite understand with the lecture...
What happened???
Was the lecture hard???
Or I was not concentrating...

I have my blog now...
Because...
I cannot study too!!!
What a day!!!

Sincerely hope that...
I can back to my best form...
Lets do it together...
Prz Cssk...
Right???
^^

FRIENDS and CONFIDENCE

Hi blog...
Again...
Nice to see you...

These few days...
I am quite happy...
With reasons...
Because of you...
My friends...

Suddenly...
I think of My Memory Books...
There are many details of my friends...
And their comments on me...
Joker...
Happy...
Optimistic...
And many more...

And I stucked...
Well...
Since I started my uni life...
I had not been optimistic for a long time...
Always have a negative thinking...
Always not having confident in facing exam...
Thats why...
I have a new nick name...
Faker...

But now...
I am not sure...
But...
After last week midterm...
I think...
I had found my confidence back...
Porbably...
I had tried my best...
And...
Friends' motivation...
Thx...

No matter what are the result...
I am telling myself...
My confidence is almost back...
I hope so...

^^

Exam and my feeling

Hi blog...
Nice to see u again...
Did not update for a few days...
Cant used to it...
T.T...=.=

The previous week...
I had to face two big wars...
Midterm...
Comment on it???
Hmmm....
Ntg...
What I can say is...
I had tried my best...
I had not disappointed my parents...
My friends...

I juz had my finance test today...
The day before it...
I had my revision...
And...
I tried my best to KO the notes...
LOLZ...

Same thing happened to my cost accounting...
Same...
I tried my best...
I had reached my maximum and peak...

And...
Appreciate...
Words froms my friends...
Those words...
Helped a lot...

Next week is time for assignment...
Lets do it together, my friends...

P/S Don't think I forget...
Next week is exam for my TC, TD and TE friends...
As usual...
Jiayou all my friends...
Lets do it together...


^^

Lydia

Recently...
I find out this song is suitable for my situation now...

Por los momertos dif ciles,
ya entennd que la flor m s bella ser a aismpre pare mi.
Lydia 迷离的眼眶
为何流浪　
心碎的海洋受了伤　
连微笑都彷徨
Gypsin女郎　
为谁而唱
你会看见雾　
看见云　
看见太阳
均裂的大地
重复着悲伤
他走了带不走你的天堂　
风干后会留下彩虹泪光
他走了
你可以把梦留下　
总会有个地方　
等待爱飞翔
Lydia 幸福不在远方
开一扇窗　许下愿望
你会感受爱　
感受恨　
感受原谅
生命总不会只充满悲伤
他走了带不走你的天堂　
风干后会留下彩虹泪光
他走了
你可以把梦留下　
总会有个地方　
等待爱飞翔
他走了带不走你的天堂　
风干后会留下彩虹泪光
他走了你可以把梦留下　
总会有个地方　
等待爱飞翔
彩虹泪光

F.R.I.E.N.D.S

Hi blog...
nice to see u again...
It is 0104 now...
And say truely...
I cant sleep...
Because of sumthing...

Friendship....
It makes me happy...
But...
It also makes me sad...

Suddenly...
I am thinking...
Maybe...
I am too stubborn on it...
Or...
Am I too loyal to friends...

Say truely...
I treat every frens fairly...
So my friends...
Dun think too much...
Equally and fairly...
Juz nice...

But...
Juz now...
I found out that...
Am I too care on my friends???
Say truely...
I can do and try my best to help my friends...
Within my ability...

So...
Those who read this aticle...
Pls...
Juz wanna tell u all...
I am not a faker...

I TREAT ALL MY FRIENDS WITH MY HEART...
No matter best frens...
Good frens...
Common frens...

Why????
Because all of you are my friends...

Complicated

Hi blog...
Nice to see u again...
There is long time ago...
Since I updated my blog...

Recently...
I am happy with my life...
Without reason...
Especially on friday...
I meet many of my friends...
Melvin...
Lengzai...[promise...next time gv u a new and nice nickname]
Melvin's mother....
Summore...
I had a nice tutorial class that day...

Throughout sem 3...
Many thing happened...
Bad things...
Good things...

However...
I am not down with stress yet...
Y???
Because all of u...
My friends...
Jo ee...
Hojun...
James...
Leng zai...[and ur emails...i reli appreciate]
Rong han...
Enrin...
ETC...

I noe...
I shall never walk alone...

So...
For my frens...
^^

Comfortable

Say truely...
Since the day the exam result came out...
I never happy before...
Dissapointed with exam result???
Erm...
No...
Since my parents are extremely satisfied with it...
But...
There is a feeling...
Deep in my heart...
[Intro...]

Ok...
Lets go back to my main topic...
Since jo ee is a good counsellor...
He really helped me a lot...
Giving advise...
Meaningful sentences...
ETC...
I really appreciate it...

Yesterday...
It was a rainy day...
Having a chat with Thomas...
Deep in my mind...
He is really a good friend...
Giving me advise and suggestions...

Although I am still feeling uncomfortable now...
But...
Compared to before...
I am more comfortable now...
I need to be open minded...
As I know...
If I don't do that...
What happened is...
Dissapointing my parents...
Dissapointing my brother...
Dissapointed my friends...
Mental disease... [say truely]
Cannot perform better...

I shall try my best to change...
Rite???

Prz CSSK

Solo...

Since sem 2...
I had seen a meaningful sentence...
From Hiang blog...
And Amanda email...

And...
This sentence had helped me a lot...
It helped me to pass through a torturing sem 2...

But now...
sem 3 is coming...
And...
I need this sentence again...
But not because of her...
But because of certain things...

Fighting for 2 sem...
Finally...
I beat the asshole...
Although is little...
I am satisfied...

Back to my main topic...
Sem 3 is a new challenge...
And...
I am giving myself one more chance...
Putting friendship on the top of my list...

Sincerely....
Hope that...
My decision does not wrong...

Stick together or solo...
Depends...

Loser

Recently...
Again...
I am blurred now...
With reason???
Or without reason???
I am blurred...

I am having a bad thinking now...
Since my parents are extremely satisfied with my result...
But...
Why are you still unhappy???
Ok...
I shall change my mind...

After thinking for a few days...
I am ok...
I need to accept the fact...
That...
I am having problems in anything...
Studies...
Relationship...
Friendship...

I lose to you...

Thinking...
I sincerely hope...
I can back to secondary school life...
Happy with friends...
Missing you...
2006-07 Kailiang...

Exam result and feeling

Recently...
Final result was released...
My feeling...
Is complicated...
But mostly...
I am happy...
Cos...
Hehe...

Accidently asked some of my friends' cgpa...
They did a nice job...
They are higher than me...
Most probably...
I am studying hard but not quite studying smart...
T.T...

Anyway...
What I want to say to them is...
Gratz...
Cos...
When they are having higher cgpa in exam result...
They are still very humble...
I love these friends...
These are true friends...

Happy...
Why???
Cos...
Las sem...
A sucker look down on me with cgpa...
During that time...
I was really angry...
Looking down on those who are having lower cgpa than u...
I hate it...

But now...
Who is the boss???
This time...
I beat u...
It is really a nice war...
I did it...
Thanks God...
Deep in my mind...
I think...
U are suffering...

Now...
My feeling...
Is quite ok...
Although I had a bit feeling of sadness...
But still ok...
Cos...
The one who beat me is more hardworking...
He is worth for it...
Gratz...

So...
Lastly...
Wanna noe my cgpa???
What I can say is...
Consistent...
^^

No titile

No title...
Actually...
It means...
Ntg...
T.T...
Although my feeling is complicated...
And...
I have many things to say and talk...

How complicated is my feeling???
Hmm...
Maybe...
It started since today morning...
Having a lousy breakfast...
Since I had my sleep late during last nite...
I slept back after breakfast...

What happened next???
Ntg to me...
But a ppl who are close to me...
Lets call the ppl EFG...[=.=]
After back from breakfast...
Pro...
Without wasting time...
Having his online game...
Although being scolded for many times...

Deep in my mind...
I cant bear it anymore...
Maybe...
I think...
I am suitable to stay in my uni hostel...
Alone...
Free...
Without quarrel...
Peace...


Emo-ing...
[To be continued]

Suddenly

Suddenly...
I feel sad...
Without reason...
Because of her???
I think no...
Is one of my friends...
What happened between us...
I am very blur in my mind...
Before that...
Your attitude...
Give me a feeling that...
You are a good girl, good student, and also a good friend...
But...
Sometimes...
Thinking of you...
Aren't you a bit too kind and stupid in making friend???
Having a look in her MSN pm...
Totally speechless...
How can you trust a people who ara SUCKS!!!

Since we chat happily in MSN for a long time...
Sometimes...
Deep in my mind...
I sincerely hope that...
We can be good friend...
Not quite many girls treat me such good...
Concern...
Kind...

Ok...
Kailiang...
Do not think too much...
She is 18...
Are mature enough to think...
What is correct...
And what is wrong...

Take care...

My feeling

I like to blog...
Why???
It is because...
There are many secrets that...
I can write in my lovely blog...
Sumtimes...
Having problems...
Secrets...
Secrets of others...
Deep in ur heart...
Without telling...
Is torturing...

My feeling now is nice...
Listening to SAY GOODBYE by S CLUB 7...
Suddenly...
I feel that...
I am more mature...
Compare to Sem 1 Kailiang...

Problems???
Hmm...
I have many problems now...
Friendship, Family, ETC...
However...
Compared to sem 1 Kailiang...
I can handle it myself...

Another 1...
If I am asked the favourite english words...
SNIPER is my choice...
As I said...
Sniper in games, Sniper in real life...
It does not mean my job is sniper...
but professional in observing people...
That my way to survive in my uni life...
So...
I need to improve my skills...

Secret???
Well...
Since Sem 2...
I had a feeling on a gal...

However...
Until almost the end of sem 2...
Finally...
I realised that...
Isn't it is good for having a single life???
Although...
Sumtimes...
I shall think of her...
But...
Currently...
I like single...
[Smiling and calm]

Secrets of others???
Well...
I think...
I think...

FAKE

Since the 1st sem...
FAKE has disturbed my mind all the time...
I cant understand why...
Many of my friends hated me very much...
Due to this word...
FAKE...
Even some of my friends quarrelled with me...
I cant bear it anymore...
How FAKE am I???

It is a truth...
Compared to secondary school...
Maybe...
I am more hardworking...
Cos I am scholarship holder...
I dun wan to disappointed my parents...
They worked hard for many years...

Sumtimes...
I cant deny it...
I juz study hard onli...
Nothing more...
I juz did my job onli...

But sumtimes...
Maybe I have no confident...
Tats y my fren said tat I am FAKE...

Hey...
If I am FAKE...
I shall not teach all of u since myself also haven finished studying...
What I had done???
Teach all of u in msn step by step...

FAKE...
=.=
T.T
=.=lll

My friends

Until now...
It is a truth that...
Secondary school friends played an important role in my life...
Although we are not always together...
I shall miss every moment...
When we are together...