A day

Today is a quite nice but sienz day. I had a quite meaningless day. Since I woke up, what around me was just television. I had no motivation to study. Wake up, kailiang. Midterm is coming but I have no confident on it.

It was afternoon. Boring, boring, and boring. All of the sudden, my phone rang. A messege.

Great, it was mei. She had back from Australia for holidays. Wow!!! Long time did not see her.

Promise. Gathering after finished your quarantine...=.=

Friends are always the first 1 in my mind. So, take care...XD... although I said it for many times and feel myself a bit old and long gas. Aiks.

LOVE yourself

Long time ago since I updated my last article and nice to see u again.
However, I am not nice.
Without reason.
Probably, I still cant use to a new life. A new degree life.
War and war arise and I am tired with all of it.

Last week, I watched again EU and found an interesting sentence or quote on it.

In this world, no matter no one care and love you, there is still one by ur side and tats yourself.

I felt touched when I heard this.
Yup, totally agree.
Throughout the life, no matter no 1 love you, care you, stand by your side, be tough.
It is because it is a must for you to love urrself.
If you do not even love yourself, you are totally equal to giving up urself.

Thinking back.
I am still the lucky one.
I still have myself, gangs of friends, prz, cssk, and others by my side.
This is totally what I hope.

What my status now?
Say truely...
I am totally exhausted, tired and a bit hopeless on something.
What can I do?
Nothing but promise myself and others not to fall easily.

The wars have begun.
There is no way to look behing but look forward.
Accept the truths.

Memories

Ok, I would like to say my true words. It is a truth that throughout my life, I have many and uncountable nice and good memories. Secondary school gathering, primary school gathering, nice chat with nice friends, and others.
And now here is my topic. Last night, I was looking on a photo in facebook. It was a funny picture. Few people were dancing happily. It was a nice picture but it linked me to another incident. It had left an bad memories forever and forever. It was painful and cant be cured.
Viewing the picture and thinking, whats wrong!!!??? I cant or even scare to think much and deeper on the incident.
Last night I purposely sleep early so that I can have a deep think on the incident. It had left a scar on my mind and cant be deleted.
Sometimes, I just complicated and tired. Problems arised again and again. Checking on my msn list, friends for sharing problems and secrets are much in number. Jo Ee, Lengzai, Maggie. However, one is busy for final exam, one is idle queen (just joking), one is not always online. And the main point is, there is not a need to heard on my suck problem. All of you are nice but sometimes, there is something to be solved by my own. It will be secret forever and ever in my mind and heart.
I never had a dream come true...
I am not a dark knight in maple but in my life too!!!

Bad Day

I like the song "bad day" by Alvin and the Chipmunks. And today, "GREAT", just accept it, kailiang. Until now, 2321, today is a bad day. Really a bad day.

Waking up at 0715 and I need to prepare to go back Kampar. And you know? I was totally exhausted but need to accept the truth that there will be class at 1530. T.T

Paying my rental after back Kampar. "GREAT" again. Without reason, my bike ROSAK!!! What the... No choice but walking around the hostel area to pay my rental and found myself a good excuse... I wanna do exercise. Walking under the sun at 10am ++ !!!??? Kailiang, you are totally "GREAT".

"Later want to go to school by Doreen car? At 1340"

(Thinking... class stared at 1530 lea)

"No thanks, I can go by bike."

(I regret 1 hour later. I did not realise that my bike ROSAK. But its too late.....)

At last, choiceless again but need to borrow from Nicholas.

Again, walking under the sun to his house and the bike...

Totally speechless and I cant used to it.

Sorry Nicholas.

1700

Its time to distribute notes to classmates.

Again, bad things.

2 classmates did not have the enough notes.

"GREAT"!!!

"GREAT" things do not go away easily.

Having my dinner at 2130!!!

The main point was

Once I back home to bath.

I did a stupid action.

I used head shampoo to clean my body.

I cant bear it.

Argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

"GREAT" things were around today but in fact, GREAT thing happened too!!!

Let me think.

Having McD as breakfast (I am lovin' it)

Having a nice chat with Mei (As usual, a nice friend...XD)

I know that.

I am still the lucky 1.

Nightmares

Hi blog and nice to see u again blog...

Well, back to my topic...

As I mentioned before in my previous articles...

I was blur, blur and blur...

"GREAT" !!!

And what's the effect???

Nightmares...

I was told by Daphne before that having dreams every night is normal. How if having some complicated and sometimes even scary dreams aka nightmares!!!???

For me, nightmares can be catogarised into 2 types. The real one and the fake one. The fake one just happened in this morning and cant forget it...

It was 0830 in the morning. My phone alarm clock rang and whats next? I slept again...T.T and the nightmare started.

The synopsis:

As usual, I was the main character of the nightmare. I was walking with someone in a famous shopping mall and all of the sudden, something appeared and "GREAT" !!!

I ran, ran and ran. Finally, I hide myself in an restaurant in the shopping mall. It was late at nite I think and I need to wait to be rescued. And at last, I rescued myself.... How!!!??? Easy and simple by by just woke up. My phone showed 1040. Wow!!! A nightmare that had taken me 2 hours ++!!!???

What happened actually!!!??? Stress? Tiredness!!!??? Aiks, whatever... Maybe, it happened because of you, Real nightmare. Probably, I was tired with the lecture and tutorial class. Aiks, cant used to it and I think I need to arrange back my biological clock...

Fairyland In Reality

It is a truth that just a semester break had changed me much. No matter in look, attitude, feeling, and so on.

F. I. R. is my idol and I liked their LYDIA, FLY AWAY, YOUR SMILE, and so on. F. I. R. is also called as Fairyland In Reality.

Ok, back to my topic. Thinking, how good if I can just live in the fairyland, without any stress and no need to bother much. Just living happily.

Comment on this semester break? Wow, again, "GREAT". In fact, I was just like living in a FAKE world. All the things around me are just... just... speechless. Just wanna leave all things behind and have a simple, normal and happy life. [Hey, I am just a normal person ok?]
And hey, someone please give me a "shot" to wake me up.

Suddenly, I have a song in my mind with the lyrics.

光芒 by F. I. R.
在久旱未雨的地方
被谎言围绕着的村庄　
泪水被蒸发　
经历一个世纪的迷惘　
希望被风化　
梦想难道都是奢望　
I just want　　
找一个方向　
找一种力量　
让等待的大雨会落下　　
展开了翅膀　
将悲伤都释放　
挣开那捆绑　　
有一个方向　
有一种力量　
就朝着梦里风景出发　
在大雨之后　
的第一道彩虹　
耀眼的光芒　
刺穿已枯萎的幻想用生命呐喊巨大声响　
充满了希望　
纵然冷漠是一道灰墙　
谁又该沮丧　
因为你而感动而坚强
Oh my god

Fairyland In Reality.............

P/S Promise, shall be ok
P/S Thank for the words and lyrics again, lengzai...lenglui appreciates it...lolz