Faking

I am just a fake person.
No matter what problems happened,
I am still able to smile in front of all.
Problems cannot be solved and arise.
Facing with suck things and I am just hopeless and helpless.
Who can help me?
Family? Friends?
Even myself also cannot help myself.
In fact, I am very tired and tired.
Sleep cannot help much.
Cry?
Probably, I had cried too much before.
And now, I have no mood to cry.
No feel.
Cold.
Tear does not drop down anymore.
Tired, tired, and tired.
I am just...

Jesus Navas...

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What am I doing?
In fact, I do not know.
Just that, recently, I cant concentrate on everything.
Seemed "old", tired, exhausted, and just wanna have a deep evaluation on myself.
In fact, I can be considered as a professional.
Although problems are around, I am still able to close and keep it deep in my heart.
I am tired.
Just very tired.
Who can help me?
Anyone?
Always have promises to all for being fine.
But is that my problems easy to be solved.
Fear and scare are around my mind.
I need all of your shoulders.
I miss.
Be tough.

Jesus Navas.

Miracle

In fact, this is one of the words that I like since I started my uni life.

I had told the words and shared my own experiences of miracles to many of my friends who are in bad mood.
Deep in my mind, I believe that as long as you trust, miracle will appear. (My words a bit old fashioned huh?)
In fact, I trusted the appearance of miracle due to a football match.
Try to believe it.
I happened in May 2005.
A football match between Liverpool and AC Milan.
For Liverpool fans like me, I am sure that all of you will know it.
Match started just 1 minutes plus and AC Milan 1-0.
Half time, Liverpool down by 0-3.
A bit theory and I skipped it.
And at last, believe it.

Ok, back to my topic.
Yesterday, maybe I am a bit serious but in fact, miracles happened. Having 2 midterms yesterday. In fact, as I did quite bad in previous midterm, fears and stress are around my mind. Can I go through it? Can I performed normally and well not to dissapoint my parents? Can I do it? Stress came from all direction and at last, nothing to do but try my best to study for the papers. Nervous before entering and until 8pm, I was relieved. I am quite satisfied with my papers. I have no idea on how many marks will I get but just told myself that I had tried my best. Thats all.

Last 2 weeks, I tried my best to study on my economy but at last, I had no time to finish all the questions. A bit disappointed but I had tried my best already. At last, paper was distributed few days ago. Quite satisfied and in fact, I knocked my head on the table. T.T

Before ending my post, there are 3 quotes on my mind.

As long as you had tried your best, it is not a need to disappointed with the results.

Do not expect too much, try the best is enough already.

尽全力,尽本份,对得起自己

P/S Thx everyone for helping me especially James, Jessie, Way Ru, Joyce, Ling Li , Kar Yee for calming me and teaching me before exam and many more. I really appreciate it.

Memories

Omg.

The pictured was uploaded by our old friend, Junjie!!!

Totally shocked when I discovered this.

You are great man!!!

And now, I am thinking back.

The memories during that time was the most unforgetable.

Everyone in the class are playful!!!???

All of us are enjoying our studies as well as friendship between us.

Although most or all of us had changed, what I can say is I never change.

I mean mentally.

Quite miss all of you and the time we played, studied together.

When was the last time we met???

I think long time ago.

Until the coming gathering, promise to take care and all the best to all of you.