Complicated

My mind is supposed to be clear after having a nice bath. However, in fact, it is not. I am still blur now. Before bath, I even had my draft on my mind for the article already. But now, empty!

Sometimes, I just admire and even envy on some of my friends. When problems occur, friends are around to help them.

Ok, well, same things occur on me too!!! But sometimes, it is a truth that sometimes, there is things that needed to be sloved on ur own. Secret and secret, the burden in my mind is extremely heavy. Nothing but I wanna realease it.

I have many secret tellers, chatting through msn and face to face. Actually, I really appreciate it. Why? It is because I know that I shall never walk alone. Because of you, I am survived in wars. Just like the lyrics of REACH by S Club 7.
"I got you and you got me"

Here is the chance and I would like to thank my secret tellers.
Nichollas and Miki [Always think of you two when I have problems]
Daphne [I still remembered yours words, defend yourself... ]
Lengzai [Appreciate for always company me in msn when problems and wars happened]
Melvin , Mei , bla bla bla....
I do not know what all of you think of me but deep in my mind, thank you and appreciate.

However, sometimes, there are secrets deep in my mind and I need to slove by myself.
The wars had started again...
My SNIPER RIFLE must READY...

- No title-

Great and hi blog...
Finally, I have some time slot to have an article here...

3 more days...
It will be a new life...
Great or "Great"!!!???
Who know???
I just know that throughout the month of May...
I was just having a complicated, useless, tired, no motivation life...

Complicated of everything and until now, I still cant solve all of it.
I am not GOD...
Time is insufficient...
Stress is coming from anywhere...
Studies, Love (???), bla bla bla....

Studies...
Had a nice chat with edwin on thursday night...
According to him...
I knew that...
Degree life will be challenging...
isn't it is "GREAT" ???
Whatever...

LOVE!!!???
Wow...
Since now I realise that I had written a few about my LOVE...
GREAT huh????
Haha...
This had been discussed few times by my friends and even my relatives!!!???
It was just in two weeks ago...
I was just too excited and happy keep on talking on a female friend...
Hmmm.....
I talked it for times and mom cant bear it...
At last...
"Kailiang, you and her come from two different world and she is not cup of your tea..."
Aiks... totally speechless...
Another day by another person,
"Kailiang, do you have girlfriend???"
"Nope."
"Wow!!! Are you gay!!??"
What the...
Speechless again...

Sometimes I just can say it...
When you are having hopes on certain things, there will be disappointment...
When you are totally down on certain things, there will be hopes...
Great huh???

Thinking...
Its time to change...
To change into a better person...
Just like Transporter...
Perfect in anything...
Strength, Agility and Intelligent...

Feeling nothing

Recently,
just like no motivation...
dun wanna care on anything...
and...
kailiang...
what happened to u???

Losing direction...
Need to stop it right now...
0031...
Degree starts soon....
Battles start...

Bless me pls...
prz cssk and all my lovely friends....
Shall be ok...

Stories of sem break

Hi blog, nice to see u again.
It was a long time since I updated my previous article.
And finally, I had the courage to have my article.

Sometimes, I just can say "GREAT".
Just a sem break and it had changed me much.
No matter my look, attitude, and so on.
Probably, doing nothing in the house makes me to think too much.
Negative thinking was having a visit to my mind.

There was a time, I was totally down.
Disappointed with everything. (Negative thinking)
But soon,
"GREAT"!!!
Miracle happened and I recovered fast!!! (Just like Wolverine, can heal himself...=.=)
Because of you,
FRIENDS!!!!
Comments by stephy, lengzai, ETC reinforced me.
Advise from Ashley always great.
And others.
Thank you all and
I shall know that
I shall never walk alone

Ok, back to topic.
What else I had done in sem break?
Actually, nothing besides MSN, TV, eat, games and slip.
What a holiday!!!

Luckily,
I still had some gatherings with friends for movies, yum cha and so on.
If not, you can "imagine"...

At last,
I am having a sienz sem break...

Rating: 30 / 100

A message to Stephy and others

Well,
since I cant write anything on my chatbox (T.T + @@ + ==),
leaving a message here is better.

Well,
anyway,
thx Stephy for ur words,
although I do not know you (^^).

Well,
to Stephy and others who wanna know more on me,
just add me on my msn...

realkailiang@hotmail.com

^^

Meaningless days

What a day! Opps, sorry. I think it should be what a two days. It is a truth that I was having meaningless life since these two days. Slept at around 2 am and woke up at 12 pm. I think, kailiang, you are the pro.
These two days. Opps, sorry again. I think it should be since the semester break. I was having myself in a meaningless, boring, useless, bla bla bla life. Besides eat, sleep, tv, and internet, what else can I do? Nothing at all. Looking at myself. " KAILIANG, YOU ARE "GREAT"!!! "
During study time, I jus can say, how boring studies are. How good if I can have a CS, DOTA or FIFA. Now, "great", I aam totally bored with all of them.
Since te last article posted, I had a quite sleepless night. I cant sleep well.(That y I woke up at 12 pm!!!!!!!!) Looking on the comments given, I shall know that, at least, I shall never walk alone. Thx Elvis and anyonomous.

P/S As usual, I am not wanna getting all of your attention ok? PLS......
P/S At last, I have my 3rd and 4th rules.

What??

Previously, I think it was 4 years ago. I saw an article regarding stress. Having a brief look on it and whats the result? I laughed loudly and told my mother that it is impossible to be happened on myself.

4 years passed and what happened to kailiang? "Great". A guy fulled of stress due to studies, relationship and so on.

Recently, maybe, due to sem break, it caused me to think too much. I think.....

Thinking, I am a quite... no idea with the words to describe me.

Wat is my current situation now? I think... A sniper which does not have a sniper rifle with himself.

As usual, I cried just now. Twice. Sometimes, I just wanna ignore my current situation and having a new life. However, who can give me a chance??? TELL ME!!!

Sometimes, just feel sinez with those who do something wrong but just ignore and blame to others...

Sry, I cant continue....

(To be continued??????)

P/S Lengzai and Ashley, thx for the words

Nice and perfect GATHERING

9 May 2009.
It was a big day.

Having a gathering with my primary school friends.

Wow!!!

Great, kailiang.

In fact, as usual, I miss them very very much.

(Thinking)

When was the last time I meet them???

Almost a year ago...

T.T

Woke up at 9 in the morning to prepare myself

Although it started at 11

I just cant wait to meet all of them

I even wanna skip breakfast

T.T

At last

I met them

Peng Peng

Daphne

Melvin

Waiting for others

Looking on Peng Peng and Daphne

No idea but

Changed much

And even cant recognised them

Geng huh?

Walking around and around

Finally

We reached cinema

Wolverine vs Star Trek

And at last

Wolverine won

But totally speechless when Peng Peng told us that

She goes for lunch with her mom since she watched it before

T.T and =.=

Lunch before movie

And thanks junjie

12 doughnuts

What are you doing?

And at last

I ate 5 of them

Great huh?

"Thank you"!!!

Movie after lunch. Nice movie. Just that funny Emily who keeped on kicking my seat. T.T

P/S Gambit is yeng, geng and cool!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Next destination- Food and tea. Just have a nice chat there. Wow!!! Our current situation, studies, funny things, dreams, comment on the movie just now. And as usual, I prefer to listen than talk. Haha!!! (Sorry my friends... ^^) I am not quite good in communicating but I am a good listener...XD. At last, we took some pictures there. Say cheese!!!!

Finally, Camenn reached to joined us but Emily had left due to certain thing. T.T....Nothing to do after that and we decided to have a walk on the mall. We are even helping Melvin on choosing present to his mom for the coming Mothers' Day.

P/S We met a clown with amazing height and surprisingly, we took picture with him. Something happened. Junjie carried me up and as expected, people around were looking on me. Shy, Swt and "Fish". But I like it...XD

Finally, a decision. Bring Melvin house down. We paid a visit to melvin house. GREAT. Being friend for many years, this was the first time I had my visit to his house. Nice house with a pond in the living room. GENG!!!! Having poker game aka Chor Dai D there. Pity Melvin for always being the las place aka "ass hole"!!!???

At last, 1800, I needed to go. Saying goodbye to them, deep in my heart, I shall know, I shall miss them forever and ever until the next gathering.

Comment: Lets take Liverpool football club as the example. In the Liverpool squad team, all of you, ya, primary school friends are playing the role of DANIEL AGGER. A professional defender. Deep in my heart, defenders means the last defence line for me. It means that, no matter what happened, all of you still can defend me. (Und...I am also a bit blur)

Rating: 1000/ 100
I like this picture the most (Camenn and Peng Peng, sry for not in the picture...=,=)

Fallen Angel

Recently, as usual, confused of something. Although I had seeked advise from friends, it did not helped much. Something happened and this time, I think, it was my own fault. I should not do such stupid thing, making myself in deep trouble and complicated.

Just saw something and surprisingly, I stopped there. I think, GAME OVER!!!
Stop it, kailiang....

Fallen Angel...

No title

Counting...
How many times I laugh today???
Ya...
2 times...
Just 2 times...
What happened???
I am just complicated with the current situation, current people and current kailiang...
Suddenly...
All problems arise...
And I cant bear with it...
I am just a normal person...
And...
Not lying...
I cried 1 hour ago...
Silently in bathroom...
Probably...
Stress of everything...
But...
As usual...
I am fine now...
Cos I know that...
I cant down...

Thinking...

P/S If u think that I am just wanna get ur attention or ur sympathy, u are wrong!!!

Complicated

Watching the football match between Arsenal and Chelsea...
Nice match...
But my thinking was not nice...
How to say it...
I am complicated with the current me...
Who am I actually to all of you???

Suddenly...
My sniping skill...
Turns bad...
All things go down...
Where is the sem 3 positive thinking kailiang???
Back please...

I was given a perception by others...
I am considered a siao person and like to joke...
My aim is to let my friends be happy...
In front of all of you...
Actually...
Deep in my heart...
I am happy...
And I shall know that...
I shall never walk alone...

However...
How if I am down???
Negative and unexpected things happened...
And who know that...
I am crying badly in the bed???

I am not a perfect person...
Although I like "Perfect" by Simple Plan...
I think...
I think...
Cant tell much...
Sry all...

Problems...
Is coming...

P/S Msn me if you can help me. THX.

Evaluation

Just viewed Daphne's blog and found something interesting...
I had my test and here is the result...

Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.
Your views on education
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.
The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.
How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.
What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.
Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Thinking...

Comment:
Quite right with the current kailiang...
80% agree with it...
Thx Daphne for it...
XD

Rating:
200 / 100

May gathering 2009 (part 2)

Second destination- Infi.
Wow!!! I had never went for game with my friends for a long time.
8 friends
Lets start the game
4 versus 4
I even had my words before game
WHO WOULD LIKE TO TEAMMATE WITH A NOOB?
Ostan, Tat Mun, Paul and me versus Bruce, Jasper, Wei Xiang and Gerald
2 games and in the first game
OMG
Vengeful Spirit
A good hero but I had never use it before
At last
Luckily
I am not a feeder
And I farm quite good
Ranking
Satisfied
2nd game
Random again
And sweat again
Undying
Used it before
But now the hero is a strength hero
Totally no idea
Repick and this time
MIRANA
Still know on how to play
But
Never kill 1
T.T
At last
My team won
Ranking
Not bad
^^

Before and After

Thinking and self evaluating...
Looking on myself...
Compared to before...
I had changed much...

Before, deep in my mind, my ice elements are more than fire elements...
After, my fire elements are more than ice elements...

Before, I was just a childish guy...
After, due to situation, environment, and other factors, it is a need for me to become mature...

Before, when someone did something wrong, I should hard o forgive him or her...
After, thinking again, forgive someone is a good choice (depends on situations)...

Before, I was easily played, cheated, and used...
After, I am more observant, SNIPER IN GAME, SNIPER IN REAL LIFE...

Before, I do not always smile...
After, without reasons, I like to smile to all...

Before, mind was filled with negative thinking...
After, mind is filled with positive thinking and confidence...

Before, I would like to make decision without thinking much...
After, I shall make a decision after considering all the factors...

Hoping for a better kailiang...

May gathering 2009 (part 1)

2/5/09. It was a special day for me not because of saturday where i can have my rest. At last, I had gathering with my secondary school friends. I had never meet most of them since 2008. I even did not attend khan khan birthday as I have another gathering. Seemed busy huh?

It was an exhausting day. However, it worthed. As I said before, they are having an important role in my life. Seriously, without them, without kailiang. Again, seemed a bit serious huh?

Ok, lets go back to my topic. A big day. I started my gathering since 11am and thanks jin yuan's mum for the fetch. Our first destination was jusco food court (zadou-ing). Lunch. Nice and deep chat between us. Just nice and perfect. Most of them even shocked with my currrent look. With earring. Haha, hey man, juz try it!!! RM5 and just nice. Hihi.

Time for the big show!!! We had our singk at 12pm sharp!!! Wow, as usual, nice time with all of them. Quite funny with yuea weng for keep on logging facebook and asking abou mafia war. LOL. Another thing. OMG. The second time I think. I felt the sound of Ostan. Just nice. LOL. ME? Oh yea, as usual, blow water and singk lo! What else!!??? I am not a pro. Just a song can make me having sore throat. At last, I was totally down, 唯一 by王力宏. What I can say is... I LOSE TO YOU! Straight no sound after this song...

(To be continued)

My comment for the previous article

Having a brief look on the previous artcle, thinking...
I am quite agree with the article...
Throughout the life...
We meet 3 people...
The one who like you...
The one who you like...
And lastly...
The one that having the life with you forever...

Again...
As usual...
These 3 people...
Are not the same person...

It will be a lie...
If I tell u that...
I had no feeling on any girl before...
But...
It is ok for me now...

Thinking...
For me...
LOVE...
What is it???
As the lyrics of "Never had a dream come true"
"Love is a strange and funny thing" ???
爱是付出,爱是无私的???
爱一个人不一定要拥有她,她幸福就好???
AGREE!!!

I think...
For me...
Let it be...
随缘吧!!!!!

Rating: 101 / 100

Another meaningful article

人的一生會遇上的四個人
人生就是為了找尋愛的過程，
每個人的人生都要找到四個人
第一個是自己,
第二個是你最愛的人，
第三個是最愛你的人，
第四個是共度一生的人.
首先會遇到你最愛的人,
然後體會到愛的感覺；
因為了解被愛的感覺，
所以才能發現最愛你的人；
當你經歷過愛人與被愛，
學會了愛，
才會知道什麼是你需要的，
也才會找到最適合你，
能夠相處一輩子的人。
但很悲哀的，
在現實生活中，
這三個人通常不是同一個人；
你最愛的，往往沒有選擇你；
最愛你的，往往不是你最愛的；
而最長久的，偏偏不是你最愛也不是最愛你的，
只是在最適合的時間出現的那個人。
你，會是別人生命中的第幾個人呢？
沒有人是故意要變心的，他愛你的時候是真的愛你，
可是他不愛你的時候也是真的不愛你了，
他愛你的時候沒有辦法假裝不愛你；
同樣的，
他不愛你的時候也沒有辦法假裝愛你。
當一個人不愛你要離開你，
你要問自己還愛不愛他，
如果你也不愛他了，
千萬別為了可憐的自尊而不肯離開；
如果你還愛他，
你應該會希望他過得幸福快樂，
希望他跟真正愛的人在一起，
絕不會阻止，
你要是阻止他得到真正的幸福，
就表示你已經不愛他了，
而如果你不愛他，
你又有什麼資格指責他變心呢？
愛不是佔有，
你喜歡月亮，
不可能把月亮拿下來放在臉盆裡，
但月亮的光芒仍可照進你的房間。
換句話說，
你愛一個人，
也可以用另一種方式擁有，
讓愛人成為生命裡的永恆回憶，
如果你真愛一個人，
就要愛他原來的樣子─愛他的好，
也愛他的壞：
愛他的優點，
也愛他的缺點，
絕不能因為愛他，
就希望他變成自己所希望的樣子，
萬一變不成就不愛他了。
真正愛一個人是無法說出原因的，
你只知道無論何時何地、
心情好壞，
你都希望這個人陪著你；
真正的感情是兩人能在最艱苦中相守，
也就是沒有絲毫要求。
畢竟，
感情必須付出，
而不是只想獲得；
分開是一種必然的考驗，
如果你們感情不夠穩固，
只好認輸，
真愛是不會變成怨恨的。
兩人在談情說愛的時候，
最喜歡叫對方發誓，
許下承諾我們為什麼要對方發誓，
就是因為我們不相信對方，
我們根本不相信情人，
而這些山盟海誓又很不切實際：
海枯石爛、
地老天荒，
都不能改變我對你的愛!明知道海不會枯、
石不會爛、
地不會老、
天不會荒；
就算會，
也活不到那時候。
許下諾言的時候千萬注意，
不要許下可以實現的諾言，
最好是承諾做不到的事，
反正做不到的，
隨便說說也不要緊，
請記住：
'不可能實現的諾言最動人'
在愛情裡，
說的是一套，
做的是另一套；
講的人不相信，
聽的人也不相信。
你呢？
找到了第幾個？
茫茫人海中，
你遇見了誰？
誰又遇見了你？